You are the killer of my heart

Thursday, October 28, 2004

todae had a performance for mrs teo's farewell... the band n other groups were involved... we played mancini magic n imagine... we seem to b playing these two songs all the tym... ur pieces are limited... but now we can't add more songs to ur choice coz we are busy preparing for syf... i felt tat our performance was bad n there were parts where we broke down... the sound was also bad... we were all so nervous n cold... fortunately on the whole the performance was good n enjoyable... but the most not enjoyable part was mr masree n mr chew were there looking at us... afterwhich we went back to klass to collect our report books... i am unstatisfied wif my marks... i feel that i could have done beta for my lit last semester... becoz of my lit my results have been pulled down badly... but the good thing is i can enter pure sci klass but i dun wish to... coz i dun wished to b stressed up in there... everytime i get stressed up i wun b able to concentrate on my studies... then we went back to the hall for our temperature taking and we left for home after tat... i came back to skool again at 1.30 for the counsellor cum psl interview... i wasn't realli able to make up my mind whether to join or not so i gave the i dunno ans... i tink it's beta for nature to take its course...

i keep asking myself y izzit tat wheneva i c u or feel ur presense i dun feel sad but the moment u disappear i will b down... actually the answer is veri simple... coz i love u deeply... i wun forget every minute we spent together be it happie or sad memories coz things may not go back to b lyk how they were in the past... hopefully one day we will b free... i will wait for u...

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

lost everything tat matters the most to me on the 14 of october... i dunno if u were serious frm da start but i was... i asked to patch back... i realli wanted to hear a "yes" from u but i tink da answer is no longer important or gonna make a difference... but after wad u said yesterday n wad wl told me i decided not to anymore... i'm juz bringing u stress n unhappiness instead of the happiness n freedom i wanted u to have... probably the best way out is for me to step down... once i'm out of the pic i tink u will b having an easier tym... mayb tis is the onli way to solve tis n c u happie again... i dun mind giving up as long as u get ur happiness... wish u all the best n take care of urself nobody will b there to take care of u lyk in the past... sorri for everything...

Tuesday, October 26, 2004

sianz man todae got post exam activities... was boring lor... do the device but had quite a fun tym working together wif frenz to complete it... after recess had to "compeition", our group's egg couldn't stay in the device n fell out but lucky it didn't break... afterwhich we returned back to klass... juz before leaving for band i gave von the monkey... was kinda afraid tat she would not accept it... but unfortunately she got the wrong idea...

in band it was hell for the cornet section again as usual... they are lyk pressurizing us... we played quite a few songs... the first half of the practice was quite good but after lunch we were alreadi tired so we got scolding from mr masree as usual... hardly have much breaks even though we all could feel our energy leaving our body... feel so tired after every band prac... we were informed tat we would b playing for mrs teo's farewell even though we didn't want to... but we have to change to our skool uni for the preformance...

Thursday, October 21, 2004

sian there's foreva tis somebody between us... every single thing i do she also not happie... can't she even give u some air space... she also not ur whu lor even if she ur stead she also dun have to right to b so overprotective of u...

she onli my jie lor u angry for wad... no matter whu it is u r still more important in my heart... do u noe how i feel everytime i c u so close to others... i feel the same s how u feel when u c me close to others... i also nv sae anything rite... then u still sae i nv teng u... u can go ask joanne n wl to b the judge lor... if i dun care for u and u dun mean anything to me i wun even bother to wait for u yesterdae... of coz i would wan somebody to care for me... whu wouldn't wan... dun lie to urself anymore dun b wif somebody u dun lyk... always sae me lame but i dun joke abt them n is serious abt it... realli hope tat my wish will cum true ba...

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

oh man... hurts me to c u lyk tis... everything i c u being hurt, sad, unhappie n bad mood i also feel hurt...

todae went to the arcade to wait for ppl.. waited for abt 2 hours but it was worth it at least i got to c u... but i had a hard tym passing my tym while waiting... after which i left for my lessons at ps... during lessons got "police catch" then everybody kena again sia... suay ar! then got extra tym for practise but everybody practice until halfway then give up liao... after lessons i went to look for my parents at suntec then waited for my uncle n aunt to cum to have dinner together... they were shocked to c my hair so short... but they say i look neater lyk tis haha... soo it means tat i last tym veri untidy one la... went to eat at fish & co. i tink i ate it before in aus haha... coz the dishes were quite familiar... came back after dinner n here i'm updating my blog... coz i promised somebody to update my blog everydae...

dun be sad anymore k n dun tink abt the past... if u need somebody by ur side dun worry k coz i'll by ur side...

todae went out wif irish meli joanne to ws arcade... after which we met up wif others n went to tm together... had lots of fun todae even though it was quite boring wif all the sabo touching haha... actually i started the sabo touching thing... abt 7 we went home... meli n irish went to cck to meet up wif rong n their frenz... joanne was having fever though... actually i planned to go to the arcade to look for somebody but tat somebody went to work... wad a bad plan but nvm... had a new hairstyle wif some hair dropping n some standing... saw so many ppl n they were lyk shuai leh.. haha i veri bhb one... ur noe can liao... gtg liao bb... hope to cya tml...

Monday, October 18, 2004

it's nv too late for regrets... at least u learn from ur mistakes n cherish the person more than ever... s long s there is tym nv give up... coz one dae the person will b touched... so i wanna tell u till the last minute i will work hard n nv give up... though u may not feel the same for me... u will b in me n will nv forget u... actions speak louder than words... i will cherish u foreva...

Thursday, October 07, 2004

everytime i look at the stars n i remember lots abt u... ur looks flashes in my mind always... every moment i hope to c u soon... the worst thought is during the holidaes n next year if we go to different klasses... holidaes dun tink u will go out wif me ba... it's long man 2 mths cannot c u i will die man but wad to do got choice meh... hope u will go out wif me during the holidaes n take photos wif me..