band was horrid todae after mr masree took over... at first when mr chew took us it was great... we finished the whole of syf so fast... i tink the fastest ever... then the moment mr masree took over... we started playing pieces... then is lyk everybody so tired le... then got some ppl need to rush home at 5 then he still dun let them go n still extended the practice by an hour plus... i could sense that everybody was so angry wif him coz we were all blasting... i was also realli piss wif him lor... ppl got something on n he couldn't keep to the timetable he should let them go lor...

finally i have finished doing up my blog... i changed the blogskin n some stuff in there.. if u have the tym feel free to go thru it...
my com was super laggy n i needed pei ying to help me republish my blog... thx buddy... (", when i first open tis page i felt so happie... it was a feeling lyk a job is finally completed wif all the transferring n rewriting.. but then i could also feel the sadness in me... i choose this template coz it suits my feelings rite now... probably it's a way to get things off my chest without saying out..

thursdae n fridae went to watch nike 5 on 5 man... it was so cool... thursdae wasn't anything much la it was juz the qualifying round where group have to stand any certain spots n throw the ball into the rim... but fridae on was exciting... we saw groups playing against each other... i was onli watching the gals play coz my frenz were playing... saw those gurls from chong ghee play... they are so pro lor... their skill was amazing... then watched other groups played too... then at abt 7.30 pm saw the junior boys play then at 8pm saw the gurls play followed by the senior boys at 8.45pm... the most fearless basketball player that nite was actually a gurl lor from chong ghee n she wallked away wif the lebron james limited edition shoes... biang sia the way she n her team played... hopefully i will b able to play lyk tis one dae... haha... me dreaming again...

then todae is lyk haven't even sleep for 5 hours then my mum come call me up go out then i was so pissed lor... is lyk i haven't b able to sleep enough for the past few daes lor... then go shopping bought quite alot of stuff todae... then went to grandparents house coz my dad went there to help them do some stuff... afterwhich i went to newton circles for dinner... then 9 plus reach home le then have been sitting here at the com until now...

i feel lyk a failure... no matter how many tyms i call u out is how many tyms u turn me down... but i wun give up coz i'm sure there will b one dae where u will go out wif me... but i'm quite satisfied tat u still do call me when u can but i juz hope tat u will agree to go out wif me one dae... somehow i can give u advice but unfortunately i can't heed my own advice... i tried to put it all behind me but i juz can't do it... coz i realli do lyk u... i dun care how others c me s but i noe wad i'm looking for n wad i'm doing...

it doesn't matter whether we are over anot... but i noe that somehow u still make me feel worried for u... everytime u are troubled i wanna share ur troubles wif u lyk in the past but it still depends on u... u may juz treat me as one of ur frenz around u but to me u are an important fren of me... no matter wad happens or wad the future may hold i will still b by ur side n supporting u whenever u are troubled... i hope tat u will try to look at things from a different angle i dun wanna c u being depressed one day...

sianz man... todae stayed at home the whole day so sian... do nth but sleep play n eat... then now wanna stay awake to watch soccer... thursday gonna watch bb match... at ngee ann city from 12pm to 9pm... meli irish they all taking part.. haha then i tink i reaching home quite late lor.. coz after dinner still n everything... tml got band again but i now got the passion for band dunno y... but gotta leave for drums lesson after an hour there... tomorrow got lots of ppl not coming for band coz the coucillor thingy...

i'm happie for u... knowing tat u finally stead wif him after thinking for so long... good luck to u... wish that u n him will last foreva.... tis also marks the end of the story but the beginning of u n him...

my heart sank when u told me abt him... i felt tat i dun have other choices but to let go... everything is over... nothing matters to me now... i didn't wan tis day to come so fast but since it has come i have no choice... i wun show u the side of how i'm feeling coz i dun wan u to feel it... it's beta for me to b sad then u to b... i'll treat it s i'm paying back wad i wasn't able to provide u wif in the past... s long s both of u lyk each other it's a beta choice for u to go wif him... no use being wif somebody whu doesn't lyk u at all... i dunno wad's in ur mind or wad decision have u made but i wish u all the best... if u got any problems u still can cum n find me... frenz 4eva...

finally u r back from ur trip even though u onli went for one day it felt lyk ages to me... i realli missed u... i felt out of the place the whole day... i din have any mood... i din even feel lyk sleeping coz i was worrying for u... but now u r back but u r still sick... hope tat u get well real soon before tis sat bbq...

todae supposed to meet up but in the afternoon u told me tat we were not anymore n changed it to wednesday... i was lyk sianz ar... then i had to plan other stuff to do... so i went down to meli's house... rong was there too...

so far haven't slept for a few days... everytime i finally fall asleep i juz jump out of bed again... i realli wanna sleep but i juz can't... whenever i wake up again i will have to find stuff to do rather than staring at the ceiling... how i wished tat u were there to tok to me...

how can it b tat both of us fell sick at the same tym nv sleep on the same day... so qiao... u could have called me... how i wished tat u were beside me but u were not... but also cannot blame u coz u were also sick but i didn't noe til tis morning... how i wish to c u asap... it's been a long tym since i last saw u n i'm realli missing u... i wonder how u feel now... hope tat u will get well soon... if u wanna somebody by ur side juz let me noe n i'll b there for u...

todae got band again... wan wei took us for warm-up then waited for them to come... mr chew took us once thru syf 2 then mr noname-san took us for syf 2... he taught us quite alot on sound concept... enjoyed the whole practice man... he realli made me have the passion for music... then he had to leave for malaysia n mr chew also let us off... then i had to rush home to get ready for my mum's b'dae dinner... reached there at 6.30pm but they alreadi started liao... but nvm... clara, ben, hui lyn, my two sis, uncle zai, ah shen, dad, mum n of coz not forgetting me went for the dinner... half way thru i smsed her didn't expect her to reply but she did... but she got me all wrong... i was onli caring n showing my concern for her... waited n waited for her reply but til now still no reply... i suppose i'll juz wait...

y izzit tat u dun understand my feelings for u... i nv pity u my feelings for u are true... i love u alot... i realli care abt u n dun wish anything to happen to u... u r the most important person to me... u might not reply my sms but i still will sms u... no matter where r u my heart will still b wif u... knowing tat where u going is dangerous i naturally would wan u to b more careful n take care of urself n tat no harm will cum to u... i will not let u down neither will i do any dui bu qi ni de shi... hope u will c tis n u will understand me clearer...

todae sian man... stayed at home the whole day... missed abrsm again coz overslept was to lazy to get up la... then woke up liao tok on the phone wif her.... then mum needed to use the phone to tok to my sis abt her school in singapore... so had to hang up but continued toking on msn... then lata felt sick of using the com so off it n used the phone to tok instead was quite tired by then but still continued toking... then tok until she wanna watch tv so put down then i also go watch tv lor... coz wanna sleep also too late liao... then had yong tau foo for dinner but my mum forgot to cook my scramble eggs... sianz... miss eating scramble eggs... then sat here at the com for 3 hours waiting for u to cum n finally u are here but left after 30mins... but nvm at least i tok to u... now mood veri good after toking to u... always lyk tis de after toking to u...

u said u forgot wad's todae date... nvm let me tell u but whether u c tis or not it's up to u... 7 months ago on tis veri date we were together but 6 months n 6 days after tis dae we broke up... but within tis period of 6 months n 6 days... many things happened thus resulting to the break up... but i have to admit that i didn't cherish u in the past... but now i will cherish u s long s i can... i still lyk u even though so many things happen... i juz wanna u b happie n safe... take care n all the best...

supposed to have gone to east coast on sat but changed plan coz irish n rong cannot wake up... so joanne wl n me go amk liao then cum back to pasir ris wif meli along to change then lata go to ws... went to the arcade first to find yvonne n ks n asked them to join us for lunch at mac... joanne meli wl n me went off first then yvonne came lata... then there tok tok abit then we left for far east coz meli wanna buy shirt n yvonne went home after getting food for her kor... we on the train all got the sianz sianz look plus the tired face we all looked lyk sotong... then reach far east liao we go walk walk... meli n me walk different ways from joanne n wl coz they c different things from us... then we call irish they all sae they reaching liao so we go to the bus stop wait for irish chao ta rong n another guy (i dunno the name la) in the end 45 mins lata then they come... their tym super rubber sia... reach liao we walk into far east again sianz man but tis tym got irish n rong to find for her... wl n joanne walk on their own again while i followed the other group... wah lau... i tell u hor that irish n rong walk in front then me n meli juz walk behind lyk their bodyguard lor... big shot la u two... meli in the end bought shirt from 77th street then we all go to the outside liao... joanne n wl wanna go home liao so i call my dad cum fetch me go to newton circle for dinner wif them... then eat finish liao go "ma chang" de giant to buy some household stuff then we went to fetch uncle ow to the airport... then we alight him liao then went home... i go home then k.o liao...

then here cums sunday... had to wake up early to go to church... dad woke me up at 6.30am i felt was too early then went back to sleep til 7am but then had to rush liao coz still gotta do my hair n my parents was in charge of refreshments... so left hse abt 7.35am then reached the coffee shop near church for breakfast at abt 7.45am... reached church abt 8.20am ba... then i rushed into the hall coz i tot py nv cum coz she usually got sms me to tell me that she reach liao... we had an intro to the alpha course for sermon then were asked to sign up la... then worship finish at abt 10.45am ba... had lessons at 11.10am i tink then auntie sally ask us whether we wanna join but everybody was lyk dunno dunno... afterwhich we had lessons on the book on luke... after lessons i went out for lunch at subway wif py sam clara n my sis... but before tat we went to get my mum her b'dae gift... we bought her a ring n a pendant... sam aslo had to look for his mum b'dae gift but he couldn't find any... then we went to suntec to watch shark tales but py didn't go... i was lyk smsing thru the whole show... eyes on the screen but finger moving on my phone haha... the show was funnie laughed almost thru out the show... then we met up wif roger then walked wif him to the mrt station n we went to get a cab back to clara's hse... mum huilyn benson n daniel were playing mahjong again... goodness how many tyms have they been playing tis week... then i also go there dunno wad to do... tv nothing to watch also... so sms again but no reply s usual... so i juz wait there for reply but no reply... nvm xi guan jiu hao... everytime phone rings i hoped it's her but it isn't... went home at 12 then bathe then went to watch tv til 3am plus 4am...

tis morning when i was half awake i was lyk eh how cum my phone no sms then i go c then realised that my phone no batt le so change batt then my sms started to cum in... yipee she finally sms me!!! then i went back to sleep coz still tired then suddenly she call my hp then i called her hse n tok to her... haha i was lying in bed still closing my eyes while toking (was real happie man!)... then her ma cum back le n she wanna go out liao so have to hang up liao(sobx) then sms her then at first got reply then now again no reply so i juz gonna wait n wait n wait til she replys... n here i am updating my blog...

todae went out joanne for the second tym... i mean s in onli the 2 of us... firstly we went to mac to have our lunch where we also saw jj n ericko... then waited for yvonne to pass her the photo but she nv brought it home... then me n joanne go to bugis... went to edge first then went to walk around... afterwhich we decided to go n take neoprint... there we saw wan lin n her pri skool fren... the pictures we kinda of spoil coz the spectacles reflected too much of the flash... but two of us take lyk got not much pose to do... then we went to p.s... yipee... found the shirt which i wanna buy at last... bought the dark brown de instead of the black... then me n joanne go the arcade there then go to yamaha c instruments equipment... joanne bought a polishing cloth for her clarinet... then we left for ws arcade... we saw drums pro there man... they were super... if onli i got skills lyk theirs... haha dreaming nia... by then alreadi 7 plus le then i also dun wanna engrave my name on my bracelet liao... cum home faster bathe then rush out to c sg idol... afterwhich watched ren wo hao you then here i am updating my blog again...

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feel so sucky during todae's band practice... didn't have the mood at all n felt tat something was amiss... the sound produced wasn't nice at all n i couldn't pitch those high notes at first... i was realli disappointed wif myself for todae's practice... nv had such horrible sound cuming thru... starting got lots of rest so slacked quite alot... sms but no reply... wad to do... so juz sat there n tok to the ppl in my section lor... we made quite alot of noise though... xiangqi didn't cum todae so i had to play solo... sianz... xiangqi pls cum tml otherwise nobody playing 2nd cornet... first half mr masree take second half mr chew take... wad they both taught were so different... mr masree want fast then mr chew want slow... mr chew want rit. but mr masree dun wan... so how... of coz we kena scolding la plus caught in the middle dunno whu to listen to... we got released early but reached home also at 6pm so also not much diff...

tis is wad i get in the end... so much tears i shed for u but it doesn't make a difference...

lata gotta go back to skool again for band til 6pm... sianz ar... hopefully mr chew will let us off early once we finish playing the whole piece... it will b another tiring day for me... sure K.O. upon reaching home... everytime also lyk tis de... still can''t make up my mind whether to bring my hp go skool mah coz abit sianz lor if mr chew teaches the woodwinds n the brasses rest... even if i bring the person whom i sms wun reply me, it feels lyk i'm toking to myself n without getting a reply...

i feel tat i have changed as a person in terms of character n appearance... i'm now starting to style my hair properly n my dressing is starting to change... i now have a sense of dressing... and abt my character... i wun flare up easily nowadays... i dun get provoked so easily... i have learned many things thru tis experience...

probably things will work out beta as frenz n i also dun wish to force things to suit me... if it can't suit me then i will let it go no use holding on to it coz there will b no outcome... so let nature take its course...=P i'll b happie as long as u are...

went out on sat wif meli irish rong joanne n chao ta... first tym meeting chao ta though... felt tat she is outgoing joker n more... i at first wanna go meet yvonne but she nv go orchard area...

when we reach bugis meet meli n irish i kena shocked ba... coz irish was wearing jeans! first tym c her in jeans felt tat she looked weird... then abt half an hour lata roger call me go his shop trim my hair... at first didn't wanna go coz we were supposed to wait for chao ta n rong... but in the end still went down... irish n meli waited for me n joanne at singapore river while we went to get my hair trimmed... then he took some photos of the new hair cut which i felt was nicer then before... thx kian=P... haha... saw dickson n his gf at the shop... joanne so bad sae i look lyk olinda... cum on lor... my hair where will look lyk hers... hers all standing lor mine onli certain parts... then we sat a cab back to bugis but we alighted at raffles hospital coz meli wanna go find her mum... then so happen her mum busy then we gotta wait at the food court... got 2 malay gurlz look at irish lor then we all so paiseh... chao ta n rong waited for us at the bus stop near the hospital... then we walk go bugis... i bought a bracelet those tat can engrave name on de... but no tym to engrave mayb thurs then i go engrave... then we walk go bugis street but it started raining then i also mood start to change liao... i started remembering the past again... juz simply can't forget it... after walking to bugis street we decided to go to orchard but i alreadi mood abit sianz liao coz of the rain... but nvm i still went wif them... we took a neoprint at heeren then we walk until 8 afterwhich me n joanne left first which the rest continue walking dere... we saw 2 things happening... i felt tat the world was becuming so violent... i reached home abt 9...
*Kian is a.k.a. roger...

if i sae i dun love u anymore, i'm juz lying to myself coz i noe that i still love u n can't forget u...

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