siao liao...
die liao..
she angry wif me sia..
me in the morning still tot she ignore i can take it de...
but cannot lor..
cannot tahan sia..
nv c or tok to her will die ar...
dun angry le k..
sorrie la..

todae got so many tests sia...
got bio, chem & english...
bio quite tough la...
then chem veri easy...
english is take after skool de...
still okie la..
nth to blog liao...

todae went to church...
din realli feel lyk worshipping...
find tat i'm unfit to worship...
then came sermon...
the speaker was good...
he could keep everybody awake...
i was practically listening to him speak...
learned quite alot of things...
n thinking back..
find myself so wrong...
i shouldn't have even started tis path...
then had lesson after the service ended...
din realli have lesson la..
cuz apparently gladys or danielle was suppose to share...
but both of them din cum..
so we ended off early..
then we went to town...
din wanna join them for lunch...
but since it was to celebrate clara passing her driving...
then i should go wad..
since she's my cuz...
but before tat while waiting for sam..
we went to walk around...
then we went to nooch for lunch...
my sister bought lunch for me again..
hehe..
so good!
thanks sis!
then went to walk around at wheelock place...
but onli for a while...
then titus n sam went to middle road to play pool...
clara went to fren hse for gym..
my sister went to meet her fren...
pei ying went to taka to buy stuff..
i dunno where thomas went...
n i came home...

haiz...
i'm sure i still do lyk u...
izzit true tat after something happens...
is hard to b frenz again..
if tis is the case..
how i wish i could turn back tym..
change the past...
n nv walk onto tis path...
it's been so long since tears fell becuz of u...
i din expect myself to cry over u again..
i tot i could let it go...
at least not crying for u again..
i couldn't control myself...

where have u gone...
i am looking for u..
i'm hurt...
my mind n heart is currently confused...
i dunno if i still lyk u or...
another person...
but to me i tink tat i do lyk u still...
the feeling for u should b still there...
it's lyk..
when i c u or when i receive ur call..
i feel happie n energetic..
n tat there's nothing tat i cannot accomplish...
for example...
todae...
i alreadi played til my lips r burning...
n they r still burning til now...
but the moment i saw u...
i juz felt tat i had the energy...
to continue playing...
n i survived the practice...
i managed to play at least half of each piece...
then it's juz tat out of the blue...
i juz tink of u again...
i realised tat my life has changed so much...
without u...
i dun go to skool wif the passion i used to have...
i noe tat...
it's almost impossible or totally impossible to b wif u...
but i still carry tis hope everytime..
even if we cannot b together hopefully we can b frenz...
will u care for me even as a fren...

hopefully, if u do c tis...
u will not b angry or ignore me..

yesterdae...
when for drums..
entered the centre...
then heard the fire alarm bell ring...
tot that my mp3 spoil...
haha...
until pamela came...
heard something lyk...
the korean stall in the foodcourt..
was on fire...
then i was lyk huh?!
then went out of the centre...
saw some sort of a white canvas at the railing...
dunno for wad la...
saw pamela n her other fren was standing there...
went to join them...
then it felt lyk i was in Genting Highlands...
then whole area was filled wif smoke...
n i could still c ppl cuming into the building...
they seemed to have tis question mark on their heads...
then out of curiosity...
we decided to walk to the foodcourt...
then saw mr beng walking towards us..
suppose he was at the foodcourt ba..
then saw tat the shops near the foodcourt close le...
then went there look awhile...
then walk back for lesson le...
started lesson 15mins late..
finally started on a new lesson...
then practice all the way til end of lesson..
pamela n ming ming gonna have dinner outside...
din feel lyk going home...
so went wif them to have dinner...
but nv eat la cuz me goin home to eat...
then tok tok eat eat..
7pm then go home...
reached home at 8pm...
ate dinner...
started on hw...
tok to meli n ma yi on the phone for a while...
then decided to rest...
cuz veri tired...
but i haven even do finish bio..
intended to sleep for a while onli...
but was too lazy to get up..
then at 1am dad told me to go n sleep...
then he said that he would call me up to do my hw...
when he woke up...
then i said okie..
then todae at 5.30am i woke up...
dad haven woke up yet...
then go pack bag then bathe..
then onli 5.45am..
so decided to go to sleep...
todae in school also nth much la...

yesterdae...
go church then go for lunch...
had lunch at gusto...
din actually eat...
i shared wif my sis...
then i kinda went shopping...
titus n clara went to get titus magazines..
while pei ying my sis n i...
went to look at the pair of "slippers" peiying wanna buy..
n anyway she bought it in the end...
then my sis acutally wanna go to littlematchgirl...
but i was rushing for tym n i had to get my clothes..
then went to try my shirt...
but din buy cuz my sis would b getting it lata for me...
cuz she was waiting for clara to go to the shop to get clothes too...
then pei ying n I had to go...
i followed her to popular first...
then she went to the bus stop while i took a mrt to AMK...
met ma yi there...
but i was abit late...
then went over to 466 bball court...
when we reached there onli got a few ppl there...
even meli also haven reach...
then waited n waited...
n finally everybody reached...
we went over to bishan park secondary de opp de bball court...
the boys team-tian chong were playing...
wif the group which they played against 2 weeks ago...
but tis tym they were "away" not "home"...
the match was kinda exciting..
cuz the score was so close...
n "tian chong" won by a point...
while watching the match...
helped ma yi do maths...
then did one part wrongly...
then i said xin bu zai yan...
then ma yi said something lyk xiang shen me...
then i d siao her...
sae xiang ma yi!
haha!!!
keep on d siao her for the past two daes sia...
until she was scared of me on sat...
haha=P...
*bleh*
okie back to yesterdae after the match...
went to bishan eat..
but me again nv eat...
dunno la..
i dun feel lyk eating tis few daes...
ma yi also nv eat cuz she go home eat...
then go J8 de cold storage..
ma yi go buy bread...
then me n meli behind...
ma chiam lyk bodyguards...
then go J8 opp take 88...
then meli drop at AMK...
then ma yi drop at her hse opp...
n i fell asleep halfway thru the journey cuz eyes pain...
so sleep beta...
then alighted at bus interchange...
change to 358...
saw shan yun halfway...
she was lyk so shocked to c me lor...
paiseh sia!
then tok to her til she reached her stop...
then me reach home..
realised tat my uncles juz left..
then go bathe pack bag then train awhile...
then go Zzzz... into my la la land...

todae..
went to skool lyk a zombie...
sat at the parade ground lyk a dummie...
then take pledge also can sleep lor...
but woke up in tym for the school song..
then went for ABRSM...
did a question onli...
wad a failure lor...
normally can do at least a page but todae...
then went for E maths...
got 13/15 but mr lim gave everybody one more mark...
cuz we all no tym do last question...
my results quite bad lor..
cuz i had careless mistakes...
wasted man!
then had english lesson...
ms saj went thru arguementative essay...
cuz of todae's common test...
then had Add maths...
could tell from everybody's face how they were feeling...
they all abt to fall asleep juz lyk me..
nth could get in my brain..
i could not think of anything too...
first tym during maths lesson i wanna sleep sia...
then had recess...
behave lyk a zombie too...
then had bio...
had practical on the water potential....
could tell tat i wasn't thinking...
cuz din even read wad the practical abt...
then went back to klass for CME...
we were to construct a thing wif lego
which represents dunno wad la...
n i fell asleep..
i pratically slept for tat lesson...
until it was tym for presentation..
then had chinese after tat...
din have lesson la...
we were busy giving out the worksheets...
then mdm liu was busy giving out the forms...
for the remedial...
but it was onli for ppl whu din hand in their work..
me so guai one..
where will kena...
haha..
dunno leh...
i dun lyk chinese...
but somehow or rather i always hand in my work..
then had common test..
i did narrative essay n it was abt my ideal career...
then went home after completing it..
came home sat around for awhile..
after tat went to bathe...
then go ws...
go there buy clothes gel..
wanted to buy chinese handbook but dun have..
tok on the phone wif yvonne for quite awhile...
got her call while i was in the arcade...
anyway there was nobody in the arcade..
then went to get my mum's coffee...
n went home after tat...
reached home n became "mariam" on...
helped to vacuum the floor..
then splash water on the kitchen floor...
cuz need to wash cuz oily..
then had dinner cuz hungry..
but i also nv eat much..
then sit here until now lor...

tuesdae had band...
had usual practice...
then play those pieces for syf...
n some tat we haven been playing...
when we were to play oaklohoma...
melissa n wan wei realised tat...
they did not have the piece...
then wan wei came over to stand beside xiang qi...
then melissa came along too...
then we all move down one seat for melissa...
cuz we tot wan wei standing...
then whu noes wan wei sat also...
then i was the last person to b seated...
cuz i realised tat i did not have a seat...
DONG!~
i had to sit in between of melissa's n asyraf's seat...
the metal bars apparently hurt...
then daphne was so much more kind-hearted...
she moved down another seat....
then got sectionals requested by mrs low...
then when me n xiang qi practicing...
the unfortunate happened...
my paper flew to the board...
between the 1st n 2nd level...
onli 2 windows furthest from the paper could b opened...
the 2 nearest could not...
i went to get a music stand...
when wan wei saw it she was laughing...
so evil!
then finally got it out...
but then gotta go into band room le...
then had full band for a while more then go march..
n we went home after tat... YEAH!~

then yesterday...
nth much happened...
had the usual drums lesson...
onli 2 of us were there..
then after tat me go cut hair...
n of cuz my hair is now short again...
YEAH!

todae got party at home...
got invite my frenz but they all not free...
then my cuz also dunno disappear to where...
so me juz slack lor...
then drink...
then juz play com do mp3 tok to ants...
then tok until she need to go ballet..
so me watch tv...
then in the end me fall asleep...
then woke up abt 8.30pm...
then realised that me still haven buy pei ying's present..
so me faster go to ws...
then at the same tym meet val n belinda....
then we walked home together...
on the way back they ate oranges...
then reach home...
start eating steamboat...
then tok on phone...
then hang up come online n sms..
n now everybody still playing mahjong while i'm drinking...

"eve of CNY"
went down to ah ma's hse to eat reunion dinner...
we were the first few to reach...
then eat all the way til others came... the stove veri slow... wait for so long then can eat abit...
then go to uncle patrick hse...
play mahjong then cards...
me sux at mahjong la...
i'm onli for cards...
left there abt 1am...
then reach home also 2am...

"chu yi"

went to po po hse to bai nian...
then go home cuz shen shen n uncle zai wanna bai nian wif my parents...
then after tat we go to uncle patrick hse...
played cards n mahjong..
then go over to ah ma hse...
played cards there...
won quite alot...
din have dinner though cuz din feel lyk but i drank...
i now have 2 brothers from the family...
coz the 3 of us look alike...
haha...
then left there abt 12plus...

"chu er"

go to yi po hse...
played cards there...
din realli win much...
but whu cares...
juz for fun nia...
then also got drink la...
then go to ah ma hse again...
todae nobody playing cards there...
then lata me called joanne...
so we arranged to meet at bugis s she was alreadi there...
then go take neoprints...
then go eat mac...
afterwhich we went home...
i sent her home la...
cuz quite late liao...

every month passes so quickly...
it's been 4 months alreadi..

will there cum one dae when i will stop lyking her...
actually i find my life so empty now..
without her it's empty...
even though i may have good frenz...
but i still feel empty...
one thing for sure:
i still love her now...
i'm missing her right now tis veri second...
can i c her n hug her right now...
can she appear in front of me now...

tis year dun have the feeling of CNY...
lata going for reunion dinner at mum's side then lata going to dad side...
lata gonna drink at dad side...
good sia...
love it..
i finally can c my cuz whom i haven been seeing...
but many of my cuz are no longer in singapore...
therefore the feeling is not there anymore...
hopefully as the years go by the feeling wun b gone..
if not i will not even find the reason for CNY...
then now waiting for the tym to pass...
feeling so bored n slack....

kinda blew my top in klass todae..
felt so pissed...
so much noise...
couldn't concentrate at all...
to all 3/7 members...
sorry...

WAD DA HELL IS GOING ON!~
todae go to Singapore Conference Hall for syf rehearsal...
expected some achievements...
ya n we DID get achievements..
n we got f***ing scolding again...
n from whu...
the nice band instructor...
n wad did the teachers do...
RUB it in...
THANKS ALOT!~
wad the crap wif the after skool everydae practice...
come on la...
we also lyk other students got tests n hw...
n then it's not sae lyk we can study on sat n sun..
then where's our relaxation tym...
WE ARE ALSO HUMANS!~
WE LYK OTHER HUMANS NEED REST.!
i realli feel tat we have lost our childhood!
my life now is onli monday to sunday study n band!
where the hell is my break tym...
n we get threatened tat we'll b sacked if we dun turn up for band...
come on be REALISTIC!~
nobody can b there for all practices...
if we have tuition means we are weak in our studies...
all the more we should study n not skip tuition...
WE DUN ONLI HAVE PASSION FOR BAND...
WE GOT PASSION FOR OTHER THINGS...
U CAN'T B EXPECTING US TO GIVE THEM UP...
WAD DO THE TEACHERS NOE...
THEY ONLI NOE HOW TO GIVE HW N TESTS.!
DO THEY NOE HOW STRESS WE FEEL!~
N TAT EVERYTIME AFTER BAND WE R TOTALLY BURN OUT!~~
WAD DO THEY NOE MAN!~
N THANK GOD THEY FINALLY REALISE TAT WE R NOT SO FREE!~
N WAD DID THEY DO!~
THEY EXTENDED THE BAND PRACTICE TO 6PM...
N WAD'S MORE!
SATURDAE NOW GOT BAND!~
WHERE DA HELL IS MY FREE TYM GOING...
CAN'T THEY JUZ TINK!~
WE HAVE HARDLY ANY CHILDHOOD ALREADI!~
N NOW THEY R TAKING AWAY MY FUTURE!~
CAN'T THEY JUZ B KINDER!
CAN'T THEY JUZ B MORE UNDERSTANDING!~
PREFER MR LEUNG IN CHARGE OF THE BAND!~
HE NOES MUSIC N CAN REALLI HELP US!~
WAD DO THE TEACHERS NOW NOE!~
THEY ONLI NOE HOW TO IMITATE WAD THE INSTRUCTOR SAYS!~

TODAE IS THE DAE WHICH I REALLI FLARED UP AGAIN!~
IT'S BEEN A REAL LONG TYM SINCE I LAST LOST MY TEMPER SO SEVERELY!~

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