Thursday, March 31, 2005
probably it's fated tat we'll nv b together...
no matter how hard we try in the end we'll not meet...
even if i wait til my entire life is over...
even though i wish to walk down the road holding ur hands foreva...
mayb i need to tink all over again...
after all these is tis wad i realli wan...
even if tis is wad i wan wad m i gonna do..
sit n do nth.?
everybody around me is letting go..
but i dun tink tat's wad i wanna do...
mayb frenz is realli wad we should b...
it's enough juz to c u happie...
in the end even if i'm not the one holding u n finishing the road...
s long s ur happie...
i will b fine...
i dun wish to fall...
i wanna go on n stay strong...
hopefully i will b able to last thru all these...
we might not have any present or future...
all i have is memories of the past...
the memories r so nice tat i will not forget...
even the feelings of them will not b gone...
hopefully they can keep me going...
the smile on ur face brings me joy too...
so dun ever stop smiling again...
forget the past n carry on...
i got brothers sisters n good frenz to support me...
wad's more i got my great family there to laugh wif me...
n my dad's a joker..
so everytime when he's there laughter feels the place...
n i have got my studies to keep me busy...
i will do well for my studies...
i wanna prove it to others tat i can do it...
[** the smile on ur face brings me joy too...
so dun ever stop smiling again...
forget the past n carry on... **]Wednesday, March 30, 2005
I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight
And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
haiz...
she's sick again...
could tell from her looks in SS todae..
she was resting her head on the table...
then lata came out to throw the tissue paper away...
from then i was sure tat she was sick again...
y izzit tat she nv take care of her own body...
she even played in the rain when she's sick...
can't she spare a thought for herself...
nv take care of herself until go take blood test...
hope u do get well soon...
i wanna c u healthy agian...
it's my fault tat u are sick now...
if u din get hurt by me..
if u din vomit...
then i dun tink u will b sick...
though i can't do such to relief u from the hurt...
i can still at least give u the care love n support...
tis tym i have set my mind on u...
i will not give up easily...
i'm serious n will not take my eyes off u...
i hope to take care of u one dae...
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
finally u're luving tat monkey...
tat tym dunno whu complain abt the monkey...
n dunno whu scolded me becuz i gave u the monkey..
haha!!
the monkey is cute k..
wif the big fat tummy n legs...
haha..
alot of hardwork put in to find it k...
so u gotta take good care of it...
Sunday, March 27, 2005
sorrie...
din meant to b so harsh...
if u sae u aren't hurt i wun believe...
cuz i'm feeling the hurt too...
i needed to tell u everything cuz i'm alreadi going crazy..
i noe tat my way is driving u nuts too...
i'm realli sorrie...
i need to clear up all the misunderstanding...
i rather do it one tym...
trust me..
the pain n hurt i have gone thru can't b lesser than u...
tis way of doin things might cause me to regret foreva...
but anything is worth it...
i'm willing to take tis risk...
hope u will take it easy k...
juz let out wadeva u need...
nv keep them to urself...
love u...
Friday, March 25, 2005
yesterdae was X-country n sis b'dae...
skool finish early so we can go home n get ready..
on the way home i fell...
n the reason was becuz i wanted to chase after her...
but i fell instead but at least got to c her..
so after all the fall was worth it...
ur might tink that it's silly of me...
but i dun tink so..
it's worth it juz to c her...
then got 2 big wounds on my left leg...
one small one at my right leg n palm..
then couldn't stop da bleeding..
then bo pian go X-country...
then came home...
bathe liao help take stuff over to the chalet...
had lots of fun yesterdae..
also drank...
then slept onli after 4am..
then tis morning wake up...
go n pack some stuff..
then check out...
go eat mac...
then went home..
mel n cuz came home wif me n sis...
bathe then went over to joanne's hse..
met ants at ws..
then go buy tickets for the eye 10...
then go to mel hse at woodlands...
she go home bathe n change..
then cum back to tampines...
buy sushi then go watch show...
the eye 10 nth de...
juz thrilling...
so shiok!
haha...
anyway now at home le...
n my wound is inflammed n i hurting me...
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
the world's crashing another tym on me...
everything is not going right...
firstly it was my results...
then lata over band...
then now tis..
after u told me...
i felt lyk i juz let u go right out of my hands...
i'm stupid n dumb..
y izzit then somehow..
whenever i'm abt to get u something will happen...
i realli feel lost...
is there another way out...
can't things b juz simpler...
if onli from the start i did cherish u enough...
all these would not have happen...
probably it's juz all my fault...
i realli din noe u enough..
but at least i tried hard..
i also wouldn't have to suffer all alone...
for the past few months...
it's lyk onli recently...
where i found a true kor which can comfort me...
not lyk my any other kor...
kor realli gave me lots of support..
thanks alot...
wad was life for me after losing u..
did u tink..
would i b feeling any beta then u...
i nv forgot the tym when u grabbed my arm...
the feeling is so nice...
but will i ever be able to feel it again...
it's not for me to decide but for u...
cuz my feelings are there but i dunno abt u...
remember 14/10/2004...
the next dae was d&t exams..
i din have the mood to study..
even though i knew tat i had stuff to memorize...
Saturday, March 19, 2005
haven been blogging for a long tym..
went to sentosa...
wif gena, mong tieng, melissa n me
last 2 days...
went there for a tan...
n i got my tan n some burns...
i even got home cuts on my foot...
n it's hurting when i walk..
but nvm small thing onli...
we all became "guan n bao" gong...
then went to watch sunset...
it wasn't realli tat nice s compared...
to the last one i saw at sentosa...
then we left sentosa...
met up wif ants..
we all went to eat dinner at marina south..
n they all except mong tieng...
gang up to bully me..
especially melissa n ants...
then left there...
went reached home abt 11.30pm..
then the next morning...
went to have breakfast...
wif mong tieng wan wei melissa..
but melissa nv showed up...
she over slept k...
wan wei left first cuz she got skool...
then me n mong tieng juz wait til 7.45am...
then we also left for skool...
reached band room...
then set up instruments all those stuff...
melissa was late for band...
haha...
expected de la...
then played til 12.30pm then go lunch...
had chicken rice...
then went back to skool...
couldn't play after tat..
muz b the chicken rice make me sleepy...
i was pratically half-asleep...
then mr hong took us...
practiced til 4.30pm then can go le..
then wan wei mong tieng joanne n me...
sat at house seats behind the fish pond..
we tok over stuffs n at the same tym wait for her...
tok abt quite alot of stuff...
saw mdm peh n she tok to us...
she asked us abt the band...
then left us alone...
then waited til abt 6pm then she got released...
finally!
haha...
but dun tink she even saw me la..
she was busy whacking her fren..
so VIOLENT!
then we also went home..
haha...
altogether we got abt 18hours of practice...
during tis one week holiday..
hopefully we'll do well...
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
hey peeps..
look at the date man..
it's 8 of march...
it's marks the 11 month...
tym passes so fast..
so much has happen within this period of tym...
i finally understand wad they mean by...
tym waits for no man...
felt realli touched..
when u ask me yesterdae wad is the date todae...
din expect u to ask me...
today juz had the feeling to look at u..
something in my heart...
next month gonna b the 1st year le...