You are the killer of my heart

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

i'm aching all over
thanks to the car washing n playing of pool yesterday
n playing of badminton today

today played badminton with hwee ming n hwee sze
had to play handicap cause there was only 3 of us
called yvonne to join us but she was lazy
as usual
but in the end
manage to pester her to go to ws with us
haha

went there to play arcade for an hour plus
then yvonne wanted to go home
on the way towards the escalator
saw giselle and celestial(i think if i'm not wrong)
then hwee ming n hwee sze went to the arcade with them
while i went to the bus stop with yvonne
her bus came so fast man
haha
then i went back to look for them
hang ard for a while
then they went to the comics shop while i went home

Monday, May 30, 2005

church annivesary lunch
yesterday was my church's 7th annivesary
had lunch as a church together usual
there were some clips played after the 4th dish
saw photos of many ppl when they were young
they looked very diff
everybody was laughing out their hearts
saw my mum's pic when she was young
her hair looks something like now
just that the dressing is diff

marine parade
clara fetched us to marine parade
5 ppl squezing at the back seat
i could feel my butt slipping off the chair whenever she stepped on the brake
went to play arcade
titus didnt play
only betram, danielle, gladys n me played
then decided to go to mph to look at books
then they went off while i went over to Katong S.C
i went to get my mum's stuff
then walked back to PP
roamed around while waiting for my dad to come n fetch me
walked n walked
n i saw yvonne
haha
but she din see me k
i was walking behind her for 2 floors
at one of the floors i was actually seeing her face to face
but she was too busy in her talk with her mum
that the whole world became transparent to her
and off i went after that

dinner
had steamboat at beach road for dinner
then after that played pool with uncle dino n eric for a while
n off we went to PP again

PP again!
haha
i went there to buy my hp
woohoo!
i bought a black Nokia 6230i
it's cool man
the functions are so solid
the camera is also clear
then went to supermarket buy stuffs
and went home

Friday, May 27, 2005

today went school was drizzling
then went to class put back then they say go downstairs
went down for assembly then got this talk from the principal
it was damn long
n it was still drizzling n there he was still talking

then got best class award ceremony
none of the sec 1-3 classes got the award
haha
this proves how horrible we are
went back to class dont know for what
cause we were having P.E
then had to go all the way down again
did the usual stretching
then played captian's ball
went looking for chairs
when we found chairs
they told us there were enough chairs le
*HUMPH*
waste my energy
the game wasnt really a game
most of the ppl wasnt playing they were just standing ard
but who cares

went back to class had CME
then had recess
after recess was free period
did nothing but make noise
haha

went down at 10.55 cause ms ng was kiasu
n we ended up sitting in the sun for 20mins
it was worse than a sauna
i was drenched in sweat
went to class to clean up
n realised that the class is very very dirty
clean til my hand also kena the dirty
i started cleaning with a clean hand n ended with a hand with black marks
haha

collected report slips
went to wash mrs ong car
had fun man
had the soap dripping on me
haha
we used 1 hour to wash finish
cause we were kinda playing with water

went home then quickly bathe go meet mum
mum rewarded me with TEVA slippers!
wohoo!

went home wait for sis to come back
bring her go tuition
then go cut hair
love my hair now
it's so fine
and looks neater now
no more explosion

Monday, May 23, 2005

this post is gonna be quite long..
so if u wanna read it be mentally prepared..

when u told me u almost fell for someone else,
my heart sank all the way down the bottomless pit
n hit rock bottom.
for the first time i felt so upset because of such a matter.
but i was glad u told me cause i wan u to be able to share with me n not keep things to urself.
i felt most upset this time,
as all the previous people whom u fell for were either people i knew
or someone who was there before i was
so the past times i didnt feel that upset.
this time was somebody i din know.
the hurt was piercing all the way thru,
probably the worst i have ever felt.
or will there come a nightmare more horrid than this in time to come?

i dont know how u felt when we didnt contact for the whole day.
i felt lost.
the whole world seemed to have crashed on me.
everything didnt seem to go in place.
yesterday was the first time
i din take out my phone for the whole day.
i felt so weird.
time passed hour by hour but nth came in.
u can say that i should have sms u first
but since u din then i took that u were busy n din wanna disturb u.

my famil was with me eatin laughin enjoyin.
so i din really find time hard to pass.
if i was there alone,
i would have lost the whole world.
i learnt that family is a great group of people.
a family can brighten up ur life.
a group of ppl who are always there to support n cheer u up.
whenever my day is bad,
they will be there to cheer me up even if they don't know what went wrong.

when i came home,
i felt that i couldn't wait anymore.
i decided to call u.
u picked up but u were on the phone.
so felt disappointed again.
went to watch tv but nth seemed to make me laugh or even smile again.
not a single smile from me for the whole night.
i just stayed in my room.

i din have the mood for dinnner.
went off for a nap,
felt that i might feel better after a nap.
at the same time i din expect u to contact me already since it was already so late.
but u called me when i was asleep.
as usual i din wake up.
guess u knew that i would return the call when i woke up,
so u text me not to return the call just sms.
din talk much for the whole day but at least i felt happier.
the day din end so bad in the end.

after u read finish this,
i will should be fine already.
don't keep things from me k.
just tell me.

Thursday, May 19, 2005

if only u did make that promise...
how great would it be...
cause it really did happen..
if not my dreams would have come true..
maybe it isn't much of a difference to u..
but to me..
it's almost everything i have..
out of all my friends...
ur the most important..
in my heart..
u matter the most..
i try to do everything i can to make u happy...
trying to make it for the past..
in the past i kept things from u..
now..
as long as i can tell u i will tell..
maybe u will say that all these do not matter to u..
but it might in the future..
i do not wanna do anymore things which i will regret in the future...
maybe nothing will come out of all these that i do...
but i will still try..
just like u said..
i cant let go..
u got it right..
after so long i still cant let go..
mayb u can mayb u cant...
nobody knows except urself...
u can lie to the whole world that u dont like me anymore n have let go of everything..
but u are the only one who knows the truth..
u cannot lie to urself..
no matter what i still will try n not give up..
if the day ever comes when someone can replace u..
i will then consider...
but i dont think that day can come..
cause im too deeply in love with u..

Monday, May 02, 2005

My Everything

Verse
The loneliness of nights so long
The search for strength to carry on
My every hope had seemed to die
My eyes had no more tears to cry
Then like the sun shined from up above
You surrounded me with your endless love
And all the things I couldn't see
Are now so clear to me

Chorus
You are my everything
Nothing your love won't bring
My life is yours alone
The only love I've ever known
Your spirit pulls me through
When nothing else will do
Every night I pray on bended knee
That you will always be
My everything

Verse
Now all my hopes and all my dreams
Are suddenly reality
You've opened up my heart to feel
The kind of love that's truly real
A guiding light that'll never fade
There's not a thing in life that I would ever trade
For the love you give and won't let go
I hope you'll always know

Chorus

Bridge
You're the breath of life in me
The only one that sets me free
And you have made my soul complete
For all time
For all time

Chorus