today im probably the happiest person on the earth besides u
got to c u so many times today
i finally made u happy
seeing u happy makes me happy
i will give u all that i have s long s u are happy
it doesnt matter to me how much i have to give to make u happy
maybe i dont really need alot from u
i just need u to be happy

whether u will accept me again is another issue
we might not be together now
but i have been treating u as my darling
and i would continue to give u the best i can ever give
i will give u my everything

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YVONNE!
Hope u r spending ur birthday happily.!
It's ur day.!
The day belongs to u.!
Exams Exams Exams.!
when it reaches ur birthday means exams too.!
but this year ur birthday is on a friday so at least friday can celebrate
Saturday and Sunday start studying again.!
Wish that u will do well for ur exams.!
Study is study but still must take care of urself k.!
Hehe..
I need to go le.!
Bye.!
Take Care.!
Good luck.!
All the best in all that u do.!
Wish that all ur wishes will come true.!
*winks
go c ur tagboard.!
*jumps to ur tagboard.!

exams are here!
stressed out again!
just c my face and u will know!
the number of pimples are increasing sharply!
it's crazy man!
want exams to faster end..
but let me have enough time to cover my revision for all my subjects
this time we are finishing later then the pure sci ppl
not fair!
we got lesser subjects then we end later
and still is a monday!
spoil the day man!
weekend cannot play must study still!
*crys BOO HOO HOO*
haha!
intensive revision gonna start tml already!
if not i will not be able to go for exams!
the tough papers all falling into the same day!

darling where are u
im worried for u
im so lost without u
u only smsed me once and after that i dont know what happen
pray that nothing bad has happened
at least sms me to tell me where u are
i called u but u nv on ur phone
where are u
im waiting for u to reply me
im feeling so uneasy without knowing where u are
tell me where u are

this is my dream house:
big bungalow consisting of
Basement:
-1 underground pub can be converted to a ballroom at basement
Level 1:
-1 outdoor swimming pool
-1 sauna
-1 gym
-1 kitchen
-1 dining room
-1 common toilet at the kitchen
Level 2:
-1 living room
-1 small movie theatre with surround sound system
-1 common toilet in the living room
-1 room for pool table
-1 computer room
Level 3:
-1 bedroom for u and me
-few other bedrooms for guests
-1 toilet in each bedroom
then im gonna rear a few dogs
hire part time maids
dont want full time maid
if not no privacy
i want a sports car
then another limo for occasions and of course a chauffer for it

before i can afford my dream house
i will make do with a studio apartment just for u and me
-1 kitchen
-1 bedroom
-1 toilet in the bedroom
-1 small living room for a tv and our meals
and a sports car will do
that's all
i dont ask for much

today!
last round of buying ur presents!
yeah!
legs breaking man!
Thanks Mong Tieng for going with me
haha..
went to suntec to collect ur present
haha
then went to get another present
everywhere we walked everybody was looking at ur present
one person said romantic
some said nice
one auntie told her husband dont know what
some were just practically staring at the present
then they looked at me
haha
hope u will find it nice
even though it isnt anything very expensive

went to tm after suntec
had to look for a box to put it in
walked the whole tampines shopping centres but couldnt find
but we saw Liyana & Yu Ting and gang
it was scary man
later they ask questions but luckily they din
then walk until leg cannot take it le
then decided to try our luck at ws
haha
there got box that can fit
but it seemed abit kiddy
got no choice
only that looked more xiang yang
if u dont like the box just put it away
haha
more importantly in the presents inside

as much as I LOVE YOU
i hope the day will come
when i will declare to everyone that ur mine
what i have will also be urs
we will go through everything together and not part again
nothing will separate us again
i will love u with all my heart
and nv let u get hurt again
let me do all the work
while u sit there and relax

the whole day today is a good one
until 3.30pm!
i tell u mrs low is a horrible person
first thing after climbing up the stairs is hear her talk
crap la she
only know how to say us
how abt herself
everytime we having practice
she already go home
how many times does she step into the band room
maybe once in 2 mths or 3 mths
only got occasion then she comes
for what
to show everybody that she's in charge huh?!
what's the use la
even if she comes for band prac and sit there do her own stuff
we also will feel that she is worthy of respect
the other teachers can also contribute but she just do nth
in charge of scolding all those crap
who dont know
i also know
she thinks she own the school or what
she isnt paying the conductor man
she is a teacher and a conductor is also a teacher
what rights does she have to call him "kelvin koh"
she is so bloodly rude
think so highly of herself
at least adress him as mr kelvin or mr koh or even by his name
calling herself a teacher is a disgrace
imagine one day someone calls u
"[ur name and surname] come here" in front of u loudly
how would u feel
she jealous that we closer to mr kelvin or what

okie nvm
shall not be angry with her
waste my energy and breath
i rather go do other more meaningful things
today played the fanfare for the "East Zone Colours Award"
abit lame la
played a few secs only
but waited for half an hour
but at least we are over and done with it


there's no one who's perfect
but to me ur good points have covered all ur flaws
that i cant c ur flaws
u are so perfect to me
i know im not perfect
but i try to be as perfect as i can
i give to u my everything
everything that i have is urs too

got bio test today
i did study for it after so many tests
im finally back to studying
the paper isnt that hard i guess
should be able to at least pass
today got photo taking
felt that it was quite lame
also nothing much to take
then today got surprise chinese test
haha
i guess it doesnt really matter
cause even if he tells us also no diff
we cannot study for it
today nth much la
next week gonna be damn stress
got so many tests and worst still got exams!
die la!
stress stress!

u know my feelings for u are true
let's have a new start
put our past behind us
start a new life together
the world which only belongs to us
and no one would interfere
take my hand
im waiting for u to spend my life with
even if u cant make up ur mind now
i will be waitiing
i believe one day u will be called mine

these few days cant eat much
dont eat during recess and dinner
even if i have dinner i just drink the soup
just dont feel hungry
even lunch also not hungry but no choice
gotta eat abit
i will be skinny soon
not bad ar
quite good slimming down

i found some answers which i was looking for
even though the truth hurts
but it's better to know the truth earlier than later
so when that day comes
i might not feel so hurt
now i know who is more important
and how much i weight in ur heart

i have done things to lose u
one mistake changes everything
even if i lose u in the end
i have no one to blame
i can only blame myself

i dont want u to hide anything from me
i want to know whatever u want to tell me
even if it's gonna hurt

if u are going to be with me for only one day
pls tell me
let me spend every single minute with u
and i wont leave ur side for even a second

i wanna fall into ur arms now and cry it all out

today's band prac alot of ppl nv come
is like disappointing
i expected more ppl
i dragged the time to report
in hope that more ppl will turn up
but at the end of the prac
the number of ppl was still the same
mr kel today told us quite alot of things
from holiday schedules to posts and ranks
gonna have two new posts soon i guess
ABM and ADM
then gonna have an band investiture during dec for the ranks
then promotion test
i think i'm gonna die
got extra tests for DM cum SL
jialat man!
today really play until i shag
come home only
hands and legs shaking
stomach empty so hungry
mouth already itchy le
play for so long
today de pieces de notes all so high
somemore solo
jialat
the trombone and cornet sections will be playing fanfare for next friday GOH
not sure whether will have band prac after that

trust me ur dream wont come true
cause it's totally impossible between me and her
even if ur dream comes true
the person wont be her
the person will be u and there would be no one else with us
u should know who is most important to me
u should know that the person is you
u have already opened the lock of my heart
u will always be in there
i wanna give u the best i can give u
i wanna c the smile on ur face
i wanna tell the world that ur mine
i have thought of our future
are u willing to accept me again?
everyday the fear is getting bigger

had afternoon nap
or rather evening nap
i slept for quite long
had a long dream as well

it was somebody's wedding
then the whole On family went for it
we booked like hotels rooms there
so we slept there the previous night
then i went out in the afternoon after a night there
i went out to meet u and somebody else which i couldnt figure out who it was
then we walked on the streets
somehow i found the courage to hold ur hands
u tried to let go
but i held on tightly
and u din try to let go after that
and we just continued walking on the streets holding hands the entire time
then the weird thing was
pastor william appeared in front of us
then he said something like
"sunday come and c me i got things to tell u."
then i looked as the other person who was with us
and i said
"i think i know what he's gonna talk abt."
by then the pastor already left
then we din bother and continued walking
we walked into this underpass where there wasnt many ppl
we walked until dont know where
then the next scene was
i was alone again
i was at the hotel already
then i saw my granny there
and i went up to her
then she said something
but i couldnt hear it carefully
and everything stopped there
cause it was pouring outside with the thunder that woke me up
the dream din look like it was to happen soon
it looked like in the future
cause pastor and granny seemed to have grown old
and i din have to ask my parents for permission to go out
i was wearing a black collar shirt
looks like my life is all revolving around black

if one day i manage to hold ur hand
i would hold it tight
cause i dont wanna left u slip out of my hands again
life without u is very different
feel so empty
if only u would come back and fill up the emptiness
let me feel the warmth of u again
time and distance wont stop me from loving u
even if im far away from u
i would still come back to c u
even if im very busy
i would still try to meet up with u
even if i cant c u face to face
i would c u from afar
i hope u feel the same too

today went for jam in the morning
this time i was late
everybody was late except peiying
as usual she's always there earlier than the rest
jam until i almost died
legs and hands all aching
maybe it's time to work out in the gym
then came home
bathed change eat and went to meet joanne
went down to bugis
met up with her "san shu" and eunice
then off we went to get your* 2nd present
haha
it's now with me
then went to the 1st level to hunt the 1st present
felt that the stuff there wont presentable and appropriate enough
so we went to c the shop at shaw
but it was close
so left with only one choice
it was the shop at suntec
they din have the number that i wanted
but special order lor
haha
so i got what i wanted in the end
then finally feel more relaxed
cause everything's in place already
then went to the arcade
joanne played the game
that's like u use the machine then try to get the soft toy out
she din get it
but was close to
and we or rather i started our d siao again
i told them y not we bring her to the toy shop
where there are so many stuff toys for her to choose
then we break even the cost
but of course we din do that in the end
joanne told us to go down to town with her
to meet xing mel and their friends
so off we go to town
reached town go to cine to look for them
standed at the main door
and they started talking
xing they all wanna go heeren
then joanne's "san shu" wanna go find watch
so we met them later over there
then sit there awhile more
finally we decided to go to cine's LJS
after so long we got dinner
then 9.30 le
me and joanne's "san shu" left first
gotta rush home

even though i have been out there the whole day
i have nv stopped missing u
from the time i knew u
till this very moment
and in future

okie i know guys
it's super early in the morning
3.30am
haha
dont ask me why i'm still not in bed
cause i also dont know y
cant sleep
maybe i'm just too happy to sleep
or izzit that i'm missing u too much that i cant sleep
i cant wait to c u again
tml going to order ur presents already
before time runs out
cause exams are coming
gonna be busy studying
later got jamming at 10am
so sian la
if peiying doesnt go
which i think she wont be going
cause nobody told her the time
maybe i will be sleeping at 4 or 5 or not sleeping
haha
lame right

if u could be by my side all the time
i would be the happiest person in the world

today's the happiest day for the whole yeari nv felt that happy this year
even on my birthday i din feel happier than today
even though we din spend much time together
but during the time spent with u i was very happy
felt close to u
when i saw what u were wearing on ur neck made me happier
seeing u smile and laugh made me happy
as long as u are happy i will also be happy
how i wish everyday of our life would be like today

hopefully one day i will find the key to ur heart and open it
and there i will always stay
with the ring that belongs to u
and in my heart
u will always be living there
and in future in my own house
there will always be a place for u
i will prepare the place for u to come in
hopefully the day will come when i can finally call u mine

cousin ben got ROM with hui lyn today
after all they have been through they finally are married
everybody is happy for them
i just found out today that ben's dad also got married on the 8 of sep
so cool
im not the only one which has 8th of each month marked out
my cousin and uncle too
as i sat there looking at their ceremony
i was thinking
if others can overcome all odds and be together
then so can we

it's more than a year since we last went out on the 8th
now is the holidays
but you dont have the time to spare
it's understandable
cause everybody is now busy
i also gotta get busy soon
it's already the 17th month since that date

every month that passes is a month that will stay
cause time can nv go back
as memories stay
my love doesnt stay
it grows more and more
i dont like u
but i love u loads
how abt u
i dont want the memories to stay
i want them to grow
to grow with only u and me
i wanna see u now

i feel so much like a jerk now
everything isnt taking place at the right time
the internet just breaks down at the wrong time
feel fooled now
is not i dont wanna wait or talk to u online
but things just break down at the wrong time
where's our chemistry
but this is an obstacle
we have to face it
if we dont
we'll just lose everything
maybe we are going to
maybe this have already given me the death penalty
if things were not known to anyone
then we would be much happier and having more freedom

i miss *you* lots
how i wish that i can c *you* right now
take *your* hand and walk down the beach
when i close my eyes
*you* are the first to appear
when i open my eyes
*you* are the first thing i wanna c
but i nv saw that
not seeing *you* for long
makes me wanna c *you* more
i miss *you* more than i normally would
when we dont talk much
i feel so out of the place
when *you* get angry
i try to make *you* happy
when *you* want to cry
i wanna lend *you* my shoulder
but i have nv done that

i wanna hug *you* tightly in my arms
i wanna hold *you* close
i wanna make *your* wishes and dreams come true
i wanna walk with *you* everyday of *your* life
i wanna give *you* all that i can
every minute of my life
im loving *you* more
im missing *you* more
even this very second
im thinking of *you*

went for aunt sally wedding just now (sunday)
sis went for last min shopping to look for something to wear
rushed all over orchard to look for one
finally found a dress
took a cab home cause rushing for time
then reach home wanna cut hair then the usual hairdresser not there
so nv cut
then go home start preparing
all of us decided that our hair cannot make it
so dad and me went to cut our hair
two sisters went to do up their hair
mum did nothing
she just drank her coffee
then off we went to the hotel
so many ppl there
but not the most i have seen
hehe
the wedding started
got performances by family and friends
quite cool
but the serving was slow
took some pics as usual
dinner ended come home
then sit here
internet like all down
cannot start up
took like another hour or so to get it done
my last idea was to off all the switch for the cable
then on back
who knows it works
know earlier i would have just did that
haha
waste my time
got to go and sleep tomorrow got a maths lesson

*no matter what happens i will still be loving u
if everything has to be blamed on one person
blame it on me

today went for ptm
sian sia
neck almost broke
was so straining la
y make us sit on the floor
cant ur give us chair
we got pay school fees de leh
then sit there 2 hours plus no chairs
butt pain leg pain neck pain
okay
forget abt it

got back results
think i under-perform
could have done better for both maths biology and chinese
English B3 which is like improved
Combine sci A1
Combine hum A1 big improvement
Biology A2 abit more A1 de-prove
E maths A2 abit more A1
A maths C5 common test did badly
Chinese C5 very badly done should have at least gotten B3

today went to town with er zi nu er and mong tieng
main purpose was to go and buy a shirt for sunday's dinner
but i ended up buying 3 shirts
went to catch the show red eye
quite nice la
and the words at the end was funny
then went over to heeren to look for the shirts
went to a shop on the last 2nd level
was addressed as young man la
then we were like all shocked
like huh?!
haha
then nvm la
the ppl in the shop were funny la
at first thought of buying two
but since they had such good attitude so i bought 3 instead
haha
dad sponser the shirts and pants
yeah!
daddy rocks
wait a minute
mummy rocks too
haha
everybody rocks
then just walk around found ww present finally
haha
then er zi had to go home early
so we left town early
or should i say it's the earliest we ever left town
normally we would leave at 9plus 10 plus then reach pasir ris for the last bus
haha
broke record la
but left house early too
then reach ws go to mac with nu er and mt
the cashier addressed me as sir
haha
we were all again lost for words
is like the whole day i'm being addressed as young man and sir
after that went home le
and i'm sitting here blogging
i'm left with one review to do
got to go

*i will nv ever forget ur looks
i c u everytime i close my eyes

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