You are the killer of my heart

Thursday, November 30, 2006

Today's the first day of "work".
I'm feeling very stress and uneasy abt it.
I just don't feel comfortable abt it.
Seem to be out of place.

I really need you by my side now.
I very very stressed!
Give me the strength to continue on.

Monday, November 27, 2006

I'm sick and tired now.
2 years of waiting is enough and I wanna carry on with my life.
Let the love die.
I'm gonna look for a new love.

Friday, November 24, 2006

Where are you now?
Are you sleeping at home or are you still out?
For the first time in 16 years I cried because I was worried for someone.
I thought you were supposed to call me when you reach home.
I told you I wouldn't sleep unless you call to say you're home.
I stood there through the rain and without sitting.
Finally my ankle's pain is back.
I can feel the bone poking the nerves again.
I don't care what time you are gonna be home.
I only wanna know that you're safe and at home.
It doesn't matter how long I have to wait.
I just wish that my phone would ring now.

Thursday, November 23, 2006

B called me up at 10.17am.
We arranged a time to meet.
At first,
You were supposed to come over to my house first cause I still wanna sleep.
Prom made me real tired.
But you called me at 10.32am and told me to get up.
You weren't gonna come over.
We had to meet up at the MRT station at 11am.
Went out at 11.30am and I was late.
I knew I was going to be late cause I needed at least 1 hour.
Haha!
Sorry you had to wait for me! =)

We headed down to Cine.
Saw Val and her gf at Cine.
They were at Pastamania.
We are gonna meet up again this Sunday?
Haaha!
This Sunday will be the reunion of the 31st NCOs.!
I'm looking forward to it and see how is everyone doing.

Anyway, we went to get tickets for step up after that.
I asked for couple seats and chose the row with only two seats.
I just like these type of seats more comfortable.
Bigger space.
Haha!
Then we went to LJS for lunch.
We were both hungry!
Haha!
Two hungry "ghost" making our way to LJS.
We became very very full after that.
Haha!
We were slightly late for the show but it was ok.
The show was nice.
The dance moves was cool.
If only I could dance like that.
But I will never be able to do it.
So I'm just dreaming.
But you might be able to.
Haha!

After that,
We went to Heeren for a walk.
We only went to Levi's.

Then we went to Taka.
Haha!
Went to hunt for food at the supermarket and the basement.
We actually wanted to get the rented disc from Meli and then get raw food home.
Then I will cook dinner for you.
Then I called home and mum said she was cooking.
So we didn't want to go to my house cause everyone was home.
You got biscuits, gummy and eclair.
I got ice cream and shared a mouth or two with you.
I ate one of your gummy.

We walked over to Pacific Plaza after that.
Then to Far East.
It started raining so heavily.
We were slightly wet.
We had to walk sometimes in the rain to get back to the station.
I was afraid that you would fall or catch a cold.
My hand was ready to catch you if you unfortunately fell.
Haha!
But we made it safely to the station.
We got on a train to City Hall.

Went for dinner at New York New York.
I think we never wanna go there again.
Everything tasted weird and sour.
Only the chicken nuggets was nice.

After that we went to wait for 518.
It took quite long before it came.
We got on it and the bus driver was kind of reckless.
We were almost involved in accidents twice.
He also braked so hard that you almost lost your balance.
Or did you lose your balance
We reached Tamp and had to change bus cause that 518 doesn't get to Pasir Ris.
We got on 21.
You alighted first while I alighted opp. Mong Tieng's house.
Went to pass her her gifts and went home.
Hope you like your gifts.

I really enjoyed myself today.
Hope that you enjoyed too.
I want to share every moment of my life with you forever.
May this start never have an end.

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

I just returned home from prom night.
Guess it wasn't too bad.
But the chairs and tables were horrible.
We were using those funeral tables and chairs.
Kind of no standard?
After all it's prom and everyone spent so much on the dressing.
Haha!
I think the enjoyable part of prom is eating and the dance.
The rest was kind of lame i should say.
The fashion show was also abit dots.
But had to be a sport.
So just play along.
The guessing was abit lame also.
The places were mostly easy to recognise.
It's like we see the place almost everyday.
Had presentation and speech.
It wasn't very boring I should say but there was no life in it.
Overall,
I would say that prom wasn't too bad.
But my shoes were a problem.
Now I got a skin sticking out.

Friday, November 17, 2006

Today wanlin and I went for another job interview at a recruitment agency.
It is quite a nice job I should say.
Got many chances of trying out new things.
But tomorrow we are still gonna look for more.
Best to get a permanent job.
More stable and the income is definite.
Want to start work early so that I wouldn't think so much.
And I can just concentrate fully on doing my work well.

Now,
I need a pillar of strength.
Feeling kind of tired now,
Physically and mentally.
Can you feel what I'm feeling now?
I look so fine on the outside but inside I'm feeling like a rotten apple.
I don't like the hot and cold feeling.
I don't like to be kept in the box too.
When everything seems to be going right,
Something will always have to go wrong.
I feel like I'm living a meaningless life.
It's making me feel so lost,
Making me want to forgo everything,
Pack my stuff and leave.
Is it you who is sending the wrong signal or am I the one who's interpreting it wrongly?
Can you tell me that you will be my pillar of strength and the reason for living?
Tell me how important I'm to you.

Thursday, November 16, 2006

It's been a long time since I blogged.
Been busy studying for O's.
Today is sort of the last paper.
Monday's last paper is easier.
So I'm more relaxed now.
Been going for job interviews.
Want to start working real soon.
I don't want to rot at home.
I need to start working to keep my own pay.
Don't want to be reliant on my parents since I can start working already.

Today I went for a job interview.
I should say that I love the working environment.
And it's easily accessible.
Not much a trouble to get to work.
Hope Wanlin and I get the jobs we like.
Working together will lessen our boredom on the way to work.
Tomorrow going for more interviews.
I'm tired already.
Tomorrow still gotta get up early.
Will sleep slightly after midnight.

Baby, I want to be next to you again
I feel that I'm short of something
I know that something is actually a person
And the person is you
I believe we'll be happier this time then the previous time
I will give you my everything
I will try to be as romantic as possible
I will try to spend as much time as I can with you
I'm very certain that you are the one I love
And you are the only one I can give my heart to