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successful party

2007-01-14T23:47:00.000+08:00

Yipee!
Yesterday's surprise party was extremely successful.!
My dad got a big big shocking surprise.
Uncle Dino was standing at the balcony as the spy.
We were all so excited for his return that we stopped everything we were doing and waited outside the lift.
When he saw Dad coming home,
He quickly told all of us.
All of us quickly got to our places.
I stood right in front.
When he came back, we pulled all the poppers and screamed HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
You guys should have seen his face.
He was so stun that he didn't know what to do.
He had a super big shock that he took the lift to the 7th floor before coming down to the 6th floor again.
We pulled a total of 72 poppers.
I was partially deaf after all the poppers were pulled.
We all queued up to wish him Happy Birthday.
He was so happy that he was smiling widely all the way thru the night.
He kept saying that he never had such a big birthday celebration and a surprise one some more.
We had abt 50-60 guests.
We had 3 generations there.
My parent's generation,
My generation and My nephews and nieces.
The food was more than enough even though we ordered for 40 ppl.
I was feeling quite bored cause I don't really mix around and most of them were playing mahjong.
One of my nephew, Daniel,
He was playing so violently with my cousin that his nose bled twice.
Haha!
Even when his nose was bleeding,
He still wanted to play.
Everyone was laughing at how mischievous he was.
I was in my room quite often with my nephew and niece.
We cut the cake but I didn't eat cause it's mango.
I went back to my room again.
Then later mum cleaned up my room while I went to bathe.
Mum didn't let me clean the room cause I was very tired already.
I was falling asleep while waiting for all the guest to leave.
All the guest left at about 12plus.
I still enjoyed the party!

Happy 50th Bday DAD

2007-01-13T10:26:00.000+08:00

I know my dad won't be seeing this but..
Happy 50th Birthday Dad!

A few days ago,
I finished work late and Dad also work OT,
He came to fetch me from the MRT station.
When we got home,
we bathe then ate dinner and watch tv together.
Younger sis, Alina, was lying on the sofa watching tv with us.
We were eating bee hoon and eggs.
He suddenly asked me what time I working on Sunday.
Then I forgot that Sunday was supposed to be his Birthday lunch cause we didn't book the tables at Pan Pacific as we had prepared a surprise Birthday Dinner for him tonight.
Alina was giving me that look then I quickly say "Orh, I can take off."
Haha!
Alina was staring at me with the "what u trying to do?!"
Then I asked dad,
How old are you?
He said "48"
Alina and me "HUH?!" very loudly.
Then he added "but once I eat these 2 eggs then will be 50."
Then i said "Excuse me, u are turning 50 this week!"
"Mum's 48 and you are 50!"
Then dad just give the silly laugh.
Haha!

We all are getting ready for the surprise B'day party later.
My dad's family will be over by 4pm.
Then my mum's side cousin will be 5plus-6.
The buffet coming in at 5.30pm.
Maybe my Aus cousin whose back in Singapore will be coming by as well.
We are just hoping that dad won't come back before 6pm.
If not we cant give him a big surprise.
We are intending to sit outside then when he comes home everyone will shout then he will be shocked.
Haha!
He'll be very happy.
He hadn't had his own family members celebrating his B'day with him for a long time already.
What's more it's his 50th.
But if he comes home early then he'll know the whole plan.
Decorations will be up later.
I'm in charge of the heavy stuff that we gotta buy later.
Hope it doesn't rain if not can't carry that many items.
My Mum, in charge of the arrangement of items and taking out all the chairs and paper plates.
My elder sis, Amanda, in charge of inviting people and buying of decorations.
My Aunt, Angie, whose staying with us is in charge of arranging the buffet.
My uncle, Dino, also staying with us, in charge of fetching my 1st Aunt and family up.
Alina is the lazy one.
She wouldn't be doing anything cause she's just too skinny and lazy to help.

I got to go and help put up the decorations already.
Byebye.!
I will be back to blog after the whole party.

work work work

2007-01-10T22:20:00.000+08:00

Work during weekdays is kind of boring.
Very little ppl so time passes very slowly.
I got to go and find things to do if not I will stand there like a blockhead.
Today I reached there super early.
So I decided to go and count the pants and do stock taking.
Then I went to dig out all the sizes that were gone.
I realised Singaporeans are quite fat.
The 34 onwards alot missing.
Hahaha!
After that we just stand around.
We've learnt to talk smart.
Hahah!
We stand at our own bin and talk loudly.
Haha!
She can't scold us this way cause we ain't grouping and she doesn't have any prove that we are talking to each other.
I went for late lunch at 4.30 with Cody and Khairunisa.
They brought me to a place further from R.C but the food there nicer and very much cheaper.
The portion also bigger.
After returning from lunch,
Time passed extremely fast and I left at 6.50pm.

it's a new year!

2007-01-02T23:23:00.000+08:00

It's a new year!!
Happy New Year!!
Welcome to 2007 everyone!
May 2007 be a blessing and be smooth for all of us.

I've been working for the past few days.
During work,
We get to meet very weird people.
That's when you will realise that there are many different types of people in the world.

I didn't go countdown this year cause I was working and abit no company.
So I called Yvonne, Koh Sing, Meli and Joanne over to my house for "countdown".
They were really great company to me.
We countdown by eating chocolate fondue.
Meli and Joanne were the ones who prepared it.
I supplied the location.
Yvonne and KS supplied Soya Bean.
Hahah!!
I just love Soya Bean.
It's been ages since I drank it.
Anyway I kinda sent Yvonne and Koh Sing home.
It was kind of late so not very safe.
The fondue was nice but the fruits I think were the wrong type except for the strawberry.
But I still ate quite alot for I was hungry!
Hahaha!

So for the start of the year on 1st Jan 2007,
I realised that my job will have to contribute to CPF.
I was kinda off by that.
My pay is already low,
If minus for CPF I will only take home 600+??
So I went to ask all the promoters around me.
Got 1 company they offering $5 per hour on weekdays and $6 per hour on weekends.
They don't have to minus for CPF and I heard that they are also paid during their 1 hour break.
That's like alot better than mine now.
So I got the number and I have called up.
I got an interview this Friday.
Tomorrow I'm gonna ask my boss if really need to contribute to CPF and if I wanna quit how long's the notice and of course if they are gonna pay me for the past few days work.
Whatever it is,
I will hop over if they want and can wait for me.

first day of work tml

2006-12-27T23:17:00.000+08:00

Tml will be the first day of work at Robinsons.
I will be working in the same company as Joanne but different place.
She's at Centrepoint while I'm at Raffles City.
Hahaha!!
But I think we can still go to work together if the timing fits?
So today I went to terminate my job at that restaurant.
They want me to give 2 weeks notice and according to the law, as a temp, I only need to give less than 24 hours of notice.
What's more is they don't wanna pay me my pay.
It's like wth, a big company don't wanna pay me?!
Less than 80 bucks is peanuts to them,
Y can't they just pay me?
Whatever it is,
It's over and I'm going to work somewhere else.
Hopefully first day of work tml will be ok.

happy 1st month anniversary!

2006-12-22T19:01:00.000+08:00

Today I was supposed to go out in the afternoon but it got cancelled.
So I spent the whole afternoon at home watching VCDs.
The show's quite interesting.
But still short of a person.
If only every VCD that I watch,
You are by my side,
It would be just so amazing and enjoyable.

Tml I will be working from 11am-6pm.
I'm gonna go for another job training then I'll hop over once they confirm hire me.
Now the pay I'm getting is really little and the working hours so unstable.
I got so much free time and it ain't good.
The new job is offering $5.20 and I can choose when I want to work and for how long.
I'm gonna work from Mondays to Friday for 8 hours minimum each day.
Then Sat I will work from 11am-2pm.
Sun I don't think I will work cause I need to rest.
So hopefully I get through the training and get the job.

1 month has passed and many things have happened.
Many went their own ways.
It's the end of a phrase of our education but a new beginning for all of us.

working tml

2006-12-20T21:51:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's work was quite fun.
I started off cutting beef and packing them.
After 30mins break,
I cut salmon.
After that,
I learned cooking skills,tempura.
It was fun.
I did it for like 1 hour and my chef in charge for the day,Kenny, wanted me to experiment it myself.
After doing it once or twice,
I got the skills.
He said it looks nice and I did it well.
Feels good to be praised.
I had to put my finger into a pot of hot oil to separate the sauce and I got my finger burnt.
It wasn't serious just that I could feel the heat and pain going through.
After that I learnt how to cook Unagi and Soba.
I learnt how to decorate the dishes.
Kenny asked me why I want to work in the kitchen.
I told him that I don't know how to cook so I want to learn.
At 7 plus,
There wasn't much orders and we thought that we could clear up early.
At 8 plus,
The orders came in faster than the water flowed from the tap.
We were in a mess.
The floor became so oily that I almost fell.
If I fell,
I would have been in a pot of oil.
Kenny got a shocked.
Hahaha!
But it was good experience as I learnt to be fast and careful at the same time.
After that at 9pm we started to clear up.
I washed the dishes while Kenny cleaned the equipment.
At 10pm,
Kenny and the head chef, Kelvin, started washing the floor.
I was supposed to help but they told me to go home.
They treat me really good.
Kelvin was afraid that I fell cause my shoes can make me fall and that I would get burnt by oil.
Kenny on the other hand was afraid that the hot food would be too hot for me to hold so he didn't want me to decorate those food that just came out from the oil.

Tml I will be working again.
I want to learn something new.
Maybe cooking U-don?

Missing you so much that I dream of you every night.
I can hear you talking to me.
I can see you and me living together forever.

new job!

2006-12-16T22:19:00.000+08:00

I found a new job!
I was interviewing at Cafe Cartel that day.
Then halfway my phone rang.
It was a job offer from one of the restaurants in Suntec.
They wanna pay me $4.50 per hour and allowance will be given.
A possibility of a pay rise exist.
All I had to do is to be a kitchen staff.
It was easy job and easy money.
After that, I arranged for training yesterday.
It was real easy.
Just cut chicken and peel the carrots.
4 hours passed real quickly.
My speed was slow.
I'm gonna train on my speed.
Other than that they said I was fine.
So I'm already confirmed hired.
They will be calling me tml to tell me my schedule for the week.
In Feb or March,
I will be posted to Ang Mo Kio.
I don't really mind.
I'm working to pass time and to earn some pocket money.
I haven't been taking pocket money like for a few months.

On the way home from training,
Popular sms me to say that they wanna hire me.
It's like all the jobs suddenly start coming in.
But I think I'm not going for it cause the hours very long and inflexible.
And changing of working days with others would be tough.

Today I went to get my pay from my old office.
I think they cheated me.
They actually gave me only a day's pay when I worked for 2 days.
But I don't really care cause to me,
It wasn't really honest living.
After collecting,
Reb Jac Joanne and me went to have breakfast.
Joanne and me then towned then suntec then town again.
We met up with her friend, our friend and Meli at the end.
Quite a great day.
We ate non stop for a few hours at 2 diff locations.
We ate too much that dinner wasn't really needed.

I would do anything stupid just to make you laugh.
When you do not smile,
My world becomes a dark and gloomy place.

quitted my job looking for a new one

2006-12-13T20:22:00.000+08:00

I quitted my job yesterday.
I felt so much freedom the moment I stepped out of that office.
I don't think I ever wanna do something similar to that ever again.
Now I'm looking for retail or restaurant jobs.
It has to be a stable job.
Today I was out to look for a new one.
Tomorrow I will be out in the afternoon to look for jobs as well.
I haven't asked around to see if anyone wants to come along.
Hopefully,
I get a job soon.
But I can't start working this week cause I don't have much voice.
Maybe I will get back my voice next week?

Let's get on the dance floor and dance till the morning comes.

sick again

2006-12-11T00:06:00.000+08:00

So far I've been working for a week plus.
I'm quite used to the tiredness but,
I feel so life-less.
I have to work from Monday to Saturday.
I only have off on Sunday.
So I'm like already dead tired by Wednesday.
I've no time for the ppl ard me and myself.
Yup today is Sunday and I'm sick!
It's such a bad thing.
I'm down with fever, sore throat and headache.
Tml I most probably not be working.
I gotta stay home to take a good rest and recharge before returning to work on Tuesday.
Going to sleep now!

You were there each time I needed you.
You are all that I would ever ask for.

work tml

2006-12-03T22:40:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is back to work again!
Kinda of dread it!
BUT!
I'm trying to focus on the resutls at the end of the month.!
I don't wanna let my bosses down especially when they treat us so well!
I'm gonna try to last the month and continue working!
Must CHIONG!
JOANNE!!!
WE MUST CHIONG TOGETHER!!!
CANNOT SLACK OKIE!!
MUST DO OUR WORK TO OUR BEST!!
got to go already!
Need to go and write down my goals!

These few days I've been missing you
Every minute and second
I wanna see you

stressed out.

2006-11-30T21:09:00.000+08:00

Today's the first day of "work".
I'm feeling very stress and uneasy abt it.
I just don't feel comfortable abt it.
Seem to be out of place.

I really need you by my side now.
I very very stressed!
Give me the strength to continue on.

...

2006-11-27T21:35:00.000+08:00

I'm sick and tired now.
2 years of waiting is enough and I wanna carry on with my life.
Let the love die.
I'm gonna look for a new love.

First to make me worry and cry

2006-11-24T03:29:00.000+08:00

Where are you now?
Are you sleeping at home or are you still out?
For the first time in 16 years I cried because I was worried for someone.
I thought you were supposed to call me when you reach home.
I told you I wouldn't sleep unless you call to say you're home.
I stood there through the rain and without sitting.
Finally my ankle's pain is back.
I can feel the bone poking the nerves again.
I don't care what time you are gonna be home.
I only wanna know that you're safe and at home.
It doesn't matter how long I have to wait.
I just wish that my phone would ring now.

Outing with Baby!

2006-11-23T20:17:00.000+08:00

B called me up at 10.17am.
We arranged a time to meet.
At first,
You were supposed to come over to my house first cause I still wanna sleep.
Prom made me real tired.
But you called me at 10.32am and told me to get up.
You weren't gonna come over.
We had to meet up at the MRT station at 11am.
Went out at 11.30am and I was late.
I knew I was going to be late cause I needed at least 1 hour.
Haha!
Sorry you had to wait for me! =)

We headed down to Cine.
Saw Val and her gf at Cine.
They were at Pastamania.
We are gonna meet up again this Sunday?
Haaha!
This Sunday will be the reunion of the 31st NCOs.!
I'm looking forward to it and see how is everyone doing.

Anyway, we went to get tickets for step up after that.
I asked for couple seats and chose the row with only two seats.
I just like these type of seats more comfortable.
Bigger space.
Haha!
Then we went to LJS for lunch.
We were both hungry!
Haha!
Two hungry "ghost" making our way to LJS.
We became very very full after that.
Haha!
We were slightly late for the show but it was ok.
The show was nice.
The dance moves was cool.
If only I could dance like that.
But I will never be able to do it.
So I'm just dreaming.
But you might be able to.
Haha!

After that,
We went to Heeren for a walk.
We only went to Levi's.

Then we went to Taka.
Haha!
Went to hunt for food at the supermarket and the basement.
We actually wanted to get the rented disc from Meli and then get raw food home.
Then I will cook dinner for you.
Then I called home and mum said she was cooking.
So we didn't want to go to my house cause everyone was home.
You got biscuits, gummy and eclair.
I got ice cream and shared a mouth or two with you.
I ate one of your gummy.

We walked over to Pacific Plaza after that.
Then to Far East.
It started raining so heavily.
We were slightly wet.
We had to walk sometimes in the rain to get back to the station.
I was afraid that you would fall or catch a cold.
My hand was ready to catch you if you unfortunately fell.
Haha!
But we made it safely to the station.
We got on a train to City Hall.

Went for dinner at New York New York.
I think we never wanna go there again.
Everything tasted weird and sour.
Only the chicken nuggets was nice.

After that we went to wait for 518.
It took quite long before it came.
We got on it and the bus driver was kind of reckless.
We were almost involved in accidents twice.
He also braked so hard that you almost lost your balance.
Or did you lose your balance
We reached Tamp and had to change bus cause that 518 doesn't get to Pasir Ris.
We got on 21.
You alighted first while I alighted opp. Mong Tieng's house.
Went to pass her her gifts and went home.
Hope you like your gifts.

I really enjoyed myself today.
Hope that you enjoyed too.
I want to share every moment of my life with you forever.
May this start never have an end.

B, tonight's the night.

2006-11-22T23:06:00.000+08:00

I just returned home from prom night.
Guess it wasn't too bad.
But the chairs and tables were horrible.
We were using those funeral tables and chairs.
Kind of no standard?
After all it's prom and everyone spent so much on the dressing.
Haha!
I think the enjoyable part of prom is eating and the dance.
The rest was kind of lame i should say.
The fashion show was also abit dots.
But had to be a sport.
So just play along.
The guessing was abit lame also.
The places were mostly easy to recognise.
It's like we see the place almost everyday.
Had presentation and speech.
It wasn't very boring I should say but there was no life in it.
Overall,
I would say that prom wasn't too bad.
But my shoes were a problem.
Now I got a skin sticking out.

kinda tired.

2006-11-17T23:25:00.000+08:00

Today wanlin and I went for another job interview at a recruitment agency.
It is quite a nice job I should say.
Got many chances of trying out new things.
But tomorrow we are still gonna look for more.
Best to get a permanent job.
More stable and the income is definite.
Want to start work early so that I wouldn't think so much.
And I can just concentrate fully on doing my work well.

Now,
I need a pillar of strength.
Feeling kind of tired now,
Physically and mentally.
Can you feel what I'm feeling now?
I look so fine on the outside but inside I'm feeling like a rotten apple.
I don't like the hot and cold feeling.
I don't like to be kept in the box too.
When everything seems to be going right,
Something will always have to go wrong.
I feel like I'm living a meaningless life.
It's making me feel so lost,
Making me want to forgo everything,
Pack my stuff and leave.
Is it you who is sending the wrong signal or am I the one who's interpreting it wrongly?
Can you tell me that you will be my pillar of strength and the reason for living?
Tell me how important I'm to you.

long time since i blogged

2006-11-16T22:50:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time since I blogged.
Been busy studying for O's.
Today is sort of the last paper.
Monday's last paper is easier.
So I'm more relaxed now.
Been going for job interviews.
Want to start working real soon.
I don't want to rot at home.
I need to start working to keep my own pay.
Don't want to be reliant on my parents since I can start working already.

Today I went for a job interview.
I should say that I love the working environment.
And it's easily accessible.
Not much a trouble to get to work.
Hope Wanlin and I get the jobs we like.
Working together will lessen our boredom on the way to work.
Tomorrow going for more interviews.
I'm tired already.
Tomorrow still gotta get up early.
Will sleep slightly after midnight.

Baby, I want to be next to you again
I feel that I'm short of something
I know that something is actually a person
And the person is you
I believe we'll be happier this time then the previous time
I will give you my everything
I will try to be as romantic as possible
I will try to spend as much time as I can with you
I'm very certain that you are the one I love
And you are the only one I can give my heart to

madness last night

2006-10-24T22:33:00.000+08:00

Yesterday night was party at my house.
Joanne, Wanlin, Meli and Jing Xin came over
My family was away.
We enjoyed ourselves thoroughly I believe.
Meli, JX and me went to NTUC at WS to get the ingredients for dinner.
When we got home,
3 of us started preparing dinner only at 10 plus at night.
Joanne and Wanlin was in the room slacking.
By the time all the food was ready,
It was already 11 plus.
I was too hungry until I became full.
I didn't eat but I ate the fruits.
While they were eating,
I cleaned up the kitchen.
It's been ages since I last cleaned the kitchen.
Haha!
My mum has always been the one to clean the house.
During dinner,
They were watching ghost show.
I personally don't really like ghost shows as I don't find them frightening at all.
You can say that I got a bigger guts but if you ask me,
I will say that it's because I don't believe that ghost exists so I'm not afraid! =)

I cleared up the table at about midnight.
Everyone was full I guess.
JX went to bathe first,
Then Meli,
Then me.
Joanne and Wanlin didn't bathe!
Smelly them!
Haha!
No la!
They didn't step into the kitchen so they are not smelly.

After my bath,
I took the fruits out.
At the same time,
I wanted to drink cause it was warm.
So I went to get a beer.
Wanted to share with Meli but I think I drank 90% of it?
Got JX a beer as well.
After the first show,
We went back to the room to watch the other discs.
The TV was small that the pic looked small and the subtitles were gone.
Meli, JX and me ended up playing cards.
Joanne and Wanlin watched the disc.

After watching for sometime,
Joanne and Wanlin then realised that the show is not a ghost story but an action movie.
So funny!
Their reaction was funny!
After playing cards for sometime,
3 of us were tired.
We decided to go to bed.
Meli went to sleep on the floor.
JX and me took up less than half the bed.
I had my face on the metal frame.
The space I took up is less than the length of my shoulders.
I was sleeping on one side of my body.
I went into deep sleep soon after that
So I don't know what happened in between.

Suddenly at 4 plus am,
I woke up.
Those people were talking so loudly.
I think Meli and JX didn't sleep?
But I didn't stay awake for long.
Soon after,
everyone went to bed.

This morning,
JX, Meli and me woke up with backaches.
Must be because of the sleeping position la.
Haha!
I went to get all the massage machines in my house for JX.
But it doesn't seem to have an effect on JX?
Joanne ended up massaging for JX and everyone of us.
Haha!
She can be the "an mo nu lang" already.
Hahaha!
After that,
we ordered Mac breakfast.
After breakfast,
we went back to the room.
We played cards and Wl ended up sleeping again.

About noon,
Joanne's eyecandy came over.
(Joanne, are u happy now?)
Hahaha!
She was supposed to come over to study but she ended up sitting at the com and watching us play.
I caught her falling asleep sitting up!
Haha!
She must be a pro at sleeping.
Looks like she has mastered my skills as well.
Hahaha!

About 2 plus 3,
my elder sis sms me to say that my parents are coming back already.
So we had to faster go and bathe then disappear from the house.
We decided to go to DTE to play pool.
Joanne and Wl went home to bathe first.
Joanne went home and never came out again.
Her mum was home and we didn't know!
Hahaha!
Joanne's eyecandy went home first.
Meli, JX, Wl and me went to DTE.
We stayed there until about 6pm.
Meli's dad came to fetch Meli and JX home.
Wl and me walked to Central.

When I reached home,
Guess what?
There was no one at home!
My family hasn't come back la!
So lame!
Shouldn't have gone out if I know earlier.!
Then we would have had more fun.
But we'll have more fun after O's.

For now,
we'll be concentrating fully on our O's.

Practical this week

2006-10-15T18:47:00.000+08:00

Just finished my homework abt an hour ago
O level Practical Exam is this week
Got Biology on Tuesday and Combine Science on Thursday
Gonna go off to study for Practical soon
After that I will have to tidy my table
It's abit messy
I can't study well with a messy table
But I'm a lazy person
So I don't really like the process of tidying my table
Ironic person

you left me wondering again

2006-10-14T09:20:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to kbox then pool
But I didn't sing or pool
I wasn't in any mood
But the company was good

There's like a pattern
When you realise that you are out of love
The friends around you will also be out of love soon
One group of people all troubled going out together
We laugh together but we know inside we are all very down and hurt
Some have their ways of taking out all their troubles
But I have none
I think I should just go back to my old way of taking out my troubles

You are disappointed and so am I
After all that we've been through
And all the time spent together
Everything that I had put in
I just didn't realise until now that you didn't trust me enough
After so much but you still don't believe what I say
You rather believe what you see
But things are not what you see
I didn't lie but you insist that I did
It's not true at all
But I can't change your mindset
You left me here wondering if you ever trusted me fully before
Can you tell me what can I do to make you believe?

Now I'm too hurt and disappointed
I want to take a break until I recover
The pain is eating me up
I can feel the mental, physical and emotional hurt
Sometimes all of a sudden I realise that I can't really breathe well
A sudden pain to my heart
Something pressing against it

Just thinking back

2006-10-09T17:39:00.000+08:00

To someone who took my heart away and left me with many memories:

Thinking back on all the memories we have
We spent very happy and memorable moments together
Walking down the streets,
Talking on the phone for hours,
How you cheered me up each time,
Going to the supermarket,
Watching movies,
Having meals,
Tasting your cooking,
Overcoming difficulties together,
And many more.
These memories are the only reason why I'm able to carry on with life now

Sleepless nights I have started to grown used to
I didn't do enough for you
And now I'm regretting
So many things I could have done
But I never did
Many wishes and promises I want to fulfill
But I will never get a chance to now

I'm happy that we are still talking and are still friends.
Sometimes what you say really hurt me
But I don't mind all the hurt,
If you feel that there's a need for it
Even though to you I'm just a friend now
I don't blame you
And I won't mind
You were not at fault
And I have to respect your decision
But I will still be waiting for you
I will be near you
And I will stay close to you
Whenever you need someone
I will always be there
I will not leave you
I will take this chance
And let you understand me more
Maybe one day we'll have a chance to start anew
But I will not force you to be with me
I want you to be with me only if true love exists
If not,
I rather remain single and just be your friend

all about you

2006-10-06T21:51:00.000+08:00

You were made to melt this block of ice
The ice became water
And due to the water cycle
It soon became Rayne (Rain)

You filled Rayne's life with colours
Your killer smile takes Rayne's heart away
You look elegant and gorgeous
Your beauty no one can match

With every raindrop that falls from the sky
Rayne misses you more
With every star that shine
Rayne wants to be your guardian angel even more

Rayne wants to hold you tight
Can't bear to lose you
Cause you mean the world to Rayne
Only you have the missing piece

Rayne tried hard to win your heart
And Rayne is still trying
The question is:
Will you accept Rayne one day?

prelims over!

2006-10-04T21:43:00.000+08:00

Yeah!!
Prelims are over!
Next up are O's.
I hope I do well for my prelims.
Even though I got a feeling that certain subjects are gonna be bad.
But I'm not going to be put down.
I'm aiming for bigger things.
But anyway,
I have 2 days break.
Plus the weekends,
I have 4 days.
Time to really have a nice sleep and learn how to relax abit.
Not going out these 4 days I guess.
I got no dates so I'm gonna date my bed.
Sleep as much as I can.
Thinking abt it,
O's are in another 1 month or less.
Time to really buck up and stop slacking.

Every second I see you in my heart

Happy B'day Yvonne

2006-09-30T00:10:00.000+08:00

Finished a week of exams.!
Still got another 3 more days.
4 more papers.
Much more relaxed already.
I can breathe abit better now.
So far exams have been a breeze except today's a maths p2.
I guess it's because I didn't pray for wisdom.
Other papers, I prayed for wisdom and the papers felt easy to me.
This proves that God's ways are higher than man.
Finished 2004 physics prelims paper already.
It was quite easy.
Ms Lim says that it's about that standard.
I guess I'm prepared for Monday's paper.
Hahaha!
But I will definitely study for it.
I'm not gonna take things for granted.
Thursday and Friday I got no school.
I'm going to take the chance and sleep.!
Hahaha!

Anyway, today is Yvonne's Birthday!
Happy 16th Birthday Yvonne!!

exams in 2 days.

2006-09-24T15:25:00.000+08:00

Exams are here!!
Tues the first paper.
After this week,
I will be able to breathe a little.
Cause the following week subjects are not so taxing.
I have finished my Chem revision and have started on Bio.
I need to buck up on my Bio.
Have been doing really badly for it.

I recently just learnt how to love a person.
And how to keep a relationship strong.
I found the factors to having a strong r/s.
Just realised how much was lacking in the past.
Now I'm thinking more maturely.
And I know what I have to do now and in the future.

Got to go and bathe.
Going to continue with my Bio TYS.

Baby, you are the world I'm living in

exams are here

2006-09-17T22:26:00.000+08:00

Yipee!!!
Exams are finally here!
I have waited for them for so long.!
I'm probably the only crazy one who wants exams to come faster.
I want to get out of the school fast and carry on with my life.
Before and during exams,
my life is not the same anymore.
And what's more is,
THIS IS THE LAST LAP!!
I want to do well.
And I'm gonna do my best.!

Anyway,
yesterday I went to Malaysia.
Had seafood then followed by shopping.
I think i spent the most yesterday.
Bought 3 adidas shirts and 3 pairs of pants.
My cupboard needs a change you see.
And I will not be going out until exams are over I think.
But there's one exception day which I will be out.

I don't like the current Geog teacher.
I rather Ms Foong come back quick.
Haha.!
Finally we are missing Ms Foong in 2 years!

Got to go,
continue with my studies for tomorrow.

Life has been different since you were gone

I'm letting you go

2006-09-04T00:20:00.000+08:00

Today will be the day.
You are tired already.
I don't know what to do now,
But I know one thing.
I have to let you go if I really love you.
Since you are less burdened and more carefree,
I will be happy to let you go.
I overlooked other factors.
The fault was in me and you shouldn't be sufferring with me.

Till the day I break out of my shell,
I don't think I want to cause any more pain to your life.
Even though I wish that you will help me break my shell,
I know I shouldn't hold you back.
I found out too late.
I tried to change to be who you want me to be.
But I started off too late.
It's time I let you go and let you live the life you want.

There's no happy ending in anything.
Either one will have to lose more than the other.
And I will gladly be the one.
We learnt many things from this.
It's a painful lesson.
A lesson that's hard to recover from.
But you have to try to recover fast.
You have to reach your goals.
You can reach them cause you have what it takes.
I will do my best as well.
I might be retreating.
I might be going to hide deeper in my shell.
And it will be harder to break it.
But I know that I will never find someone like you.
I don't think I can love someone as much as I love you.
I will be back to win your heart if I'm not too late.

From the first memory I have of you,
To the last image of you I remember,
From the first time I felt loved,
To letting you go,
From the first smile,
To the last cry,
Everything we've been through,
All the memories of us will stay,
I hope God won't take them away from me.

All I can say is
Goodbye and Take Care
Hopefully,
I will be who you want me to be the next time.

losing my appetite

2006-09-02T23:36:00.000+08:00

What will you think of,
if someone who used to eat 5-6meals a day
tells you that he/she doesn't feel like eating anything for the whole day.

Anyway,
I went to cousin's house for BBQ session today.
I was totally bored and moodlesss.
Luckily I brought my homework.
I'm one A maths exam paper down.
Which is something great!
The paper was tough.
Still got some questions undone.
Didn't have much for dinner.
Just ate bee hoon and sotong balls.
I'm back here after 5 hours.

*I can no longer see you when I close eyes
Cause I see so many images of us flashing through
It's too fast for me to catch a glimpse of you
I want time to stop
I want to see you in my memories again

outing for b'day

2006-09-01T22:35:00.000+08:00

Today I caught a ride from my cousin down to town.
My cousin came to visit us and at the same time pass me my present.
She bought me a waterproof radio.
It is meant to be brought into the toilet when I'm bathing.
But I don't know if I'll use it,
cause I bathe in 5 mins the most is 10mins.

I went down to town.
I went to Paragon, went to Crumpler.
Then I went to Wisma to Famous Amos then to MRT station.
When I was at Orchard MRT station,
something funny happened.
There was this guy from some modelling agency.
He came up and asked for my particulars.
The problem is..
I die die also don't wanna give him my particulars.
Haha!
I'm not interested in becoming a model man!
Haha.!!

Then I went over to Marina Square.
Went there for a walk and to have a look at Creative.
My cousin wants to buy PC speakers so I went to look for them for her.
Then I went to Giant supermarket to buy plastic forks and plates.
Jason and gang had bought a cake but didn't buy forks and plates.
After that I was about to leave when Yvonne called.
It's really funny.
I went back to Marina Square to look for her and Koh Sing.
I bought her a b'day present.
One load off my mind.
It's weird speaking to them in Chinese.
Haha!
After that we walked to the MRT station.

They caught a train back to Pasir Ris while I caught a train to Marina Bay.
I took a bus from there to the bowling alley.
I went to meet up with Jason and gang there.
Played a game of bowling.
I suck at it.
Haven't been playing for long.
I think I'm still better at badminton.
Haha!

After that they went for dinner while I went home.
Dad came to fetch as he was on his way home.

*That hug felt like it was the last
I had the urge to cry
But I didn't as I didn't want to let you see me cry
So I cried as I saw you leave

16th birthday

2006-08-30T23:46:00.000+08:00

This year's birthday is very special!
Firstly,
for the first time in 16 years,
I do not have a birthday cake.
My elder sis bought a cake
but I didn't cut nor eat it.
My mum was first to cut and eat it!
Haha!
Nvm cause she's the one who gave birth to me!
She shall have the honour of cutting the cake!

Secondly,
my computer got infected with some funny virus.
My msn couldn't work at first.
Now it can work but still horrible.
I tried to fix it but it doesn't work.
My internet is gone as well.
I can't log into blogger.
I have to use another com to post this.
The com is working super slow as well.
I think I will reformat it over the holidays.
But I will have to transfer out all my things first.

I received red packets from Mum, Uncle Dino and Aunty Angie, Aunty Winnie, Eldest Aunt.
I got
a handphone strap those you hang over your neck from Yvonne and Koh Sing,
a cap from Aunty Jayna,
a SD card for my phone from elder sister,
2 nike shirts from younger sister,(I didn't know she was that rich)
a doll from Raheel and gang.

Birthday wishes were made.
So far only one is completed.
Hopefully another one will come true next year.

The chapter is closing up

2006-08-27T14:48:00.000+08:00

Yesterday night,
went to billy bombers for dinner.
Mum, uncle and aunt still remembers my b'day.
Dad thought it was next week.
But I can't blame him for not remembering well.
He's busy with his work these days.
He goes off early in the morning and works OT.
He comes home at about 9pm.
Anyway,
we ate a lot yesterday.
Each of us ordered a main course.
On top of that,
we ordered a plate of chicken wings and half slab of ribs.
For once my dad is eating purely western food.
But I'm glad that dad and mum both enjoyed it,
cause they seldom eat western food.
Dinner was great.
Had lots of fun.
Was bloated at the end of the meal.

*Might be 4 days to the end
When I get the answers I want,
I might do it your way.
I hope that I'm not making the wrong choice.
Even though, I feel that I'm making the wrong choice.

Excruciating pain

2006-08-15T20:12:00.000+08:00

What's happening in my life.
My life is getting very bad.
The pain I feel is not known to anyone.
Even the one I love doesn't know it.
I look so happy in front of everyone.
Why do I have to be the one taking all the sufferings.
What have I done wrong.
I feel like I'm going to collapse one day and never wake up.
My heart aches and my chest feels tightly grabbed.
I cannot get rid of that force.
You never know how many times I cried for you.
In your eyes,
I am a strong person who will never drop a tear for you.
Each time I cried,
I hid away from you.
I sounded fine over the phone.
I sounded like I would take everything in my stride.
How many times have I fallen because of the pain.
Each time I tell myself not to give up.
I want to carry on protecting you.
Each time you utter those words,
do you have any idea what I'm going through,
do you know that because of those words,
I have died many times.
I don't know when will be the day I will really never wake up.
I really need your love and care.
I am living a meaningless life without them.

fireworks

2006-08-13T20:15:00.000+08:00

I went out with Joanne and Caspar yesterday in the afternoon.
We went to town for a walk.
Yvonne came to meet us for dinner at Billy Bombers.
At night I went to watch fireworks with Yvonne, Joanne and Caspar.
Caspar left just halfway through the fireworks.
We supposed to meet up with JJ and Wanlin to watch together,
But the crowd was too big and we couldn't meet.
We met after that.
Fireworks was beautiful.
First time seeing it outside.
Used to watch them from Grandma's house.

After the fireworks,
We were stuck in human jam until 10pm.
It was super hot with everyone surrounding us.
I was having a lack of oxygen.

Finally we got out of the jam and went to meet JJ and Wanlin.
We couldn't find them so had to make them look for us.
After that we went to MS.
It was packed.
Most of the shops were closed.
But still got some open.
We left about 11.

Today I went out with my family.
We went to Tamp then Suntec then Botanical Gardens.
I lost my mood today.
Totally no mood until now I still do not have any mood.
I'm kind of stressed up.
I think back on my chinese 'O' results,
I feel kind of useless.
I think I really need to study hard.
I decided to start studying tomorrow.
Less playing.
Preparatory Exams are coming up.
Prelims next and 'O'.
I want to get good results for 'O'.
I cannot let history repeat again.
I will let play wait till after 'O'.

Swim and Tan

2006-08-10T18:23:00.000+08:00

Today went swimming at Tamp swimming complex.
The water was very cold .
But nice cause the weather was hot.
Swam for about an hour?
Then go for a tan.
That will explain why I look like Guan Gong now.
It's the first time I'm stepping into the swimming pool this year I think.
Kind of tired now.
Hand aching as well.
Too long never swim already.

National Day

2006-08-09T23:10:00.000+08:00

It's National Day today.!
Watched the parade at home.
It was quite nice.

I liked the Band performance.
Was reminded of NCO camp.
The hardwork we put in for the Passing Out Parade.
Hours under the sun getting burns.
But I still wanna go for NCO camp another time.
Maybe we'll go back this year or the next.
Request for another POP for the 31st NCOs?
Haha.!

Tomorrow is no-school day.
But no off for me.
Gotta go get my phone repaired.
Used it for less than 2 weeks and gotta go for repair.
What's this?!

While waiting for my phone to get repaired,
I'm going for a tan.
Most probably at Tamp Swimming Complex.
Havent thought over whether I wanna go for a swim.
I need to exercise.
I'm getting a bit fatter.
Haha.!

Happenings of this week

2006-07-08T19:42:00.000+08:00

This week is super happening

Monday we didn't have school
So I went out for breakfast

Tuesday I went back to school
After being in school for less than 2 hours,
I fell at the staircase
A loud "crack" sound was heard
Everyone in front and behind me got a shock
My leg started to swell and at the end of sch,
It looked like an elephant's foot
It was twice the normal size
I went to see a physician
I was told that I tore a ligament
And no chicken for 1 week
Great
No chicken=no eggs=die
Had to wrap my leg for 2 days
My leg couldn't go into contact with water for 2 days
Anyway was horrible

Friday I went out to buy some things

Today I went out for lunch
It was nice
First time trying the food there
Enjoyed thoroughly
Wanted to try icecube but it wasn't open yet

*I learnt only after I lost you,
I wish I had learnt earlier

Helping to shift house

2006-06-27T22:11:00.000+08:00

Have been busy over the weekend
Was helping my Uncle Dino and Aunt Angie
They are shifting to my house temporarily

Saturday morning was supposed to have breakfast at Mac with my younger sis
I woke up at 8am
But she didn't wake up cause she is a pig
She doesn't wake up early
So I had to go and eat breakfast alone at 8.30am
After that I bought Mac breakfast for Aunt Angie
I bought coffee for Grandma cause she was there too
She was there to bring Great-Grandma's alter back to her house
I went home to get some things and to leave some things at home
I then walked over to Uncle Dino and Aunt Angie's house

I reached there about 9plus 10am
Aunt Angie had her breakfast
We started packing about 10.45am
The house was in a mess
There was a lot of things to pack
There were many cartons supplied to us by the movers but it was insufficient
We started off by tearing up invoices
My sisters then divided the items and put them in the carton and labeled the cartons
I was in charge of clearing the store room
After clearing the store room I helped to do the cartons
I helped to carry the cartons up and down

Grandma started praying and burning joss papers at 1pm
After that I helped take the alter down and put it into the basket
Uncle Dino came back at about 2.15pm to fetch Grandma home
We helped to carry her belongings down to the car
Uncle Dino also bought lunch for all of us

After Grandma left, we had lunch
We couldn't have lunch before that as Great-Grandma's alter was on the table
So we had to wait till Grandma went back home

After lunch we continued with more packing
I had to leave at about 3.45pm as I was meeting Joanne to go to church
I brought home some things so that my sisters wouldn't have to bring back so many things

I met Joanne at 7-11
She was late but I don't know where she was running to
We ended up taking cab
It isn't good to be late for church
By the time we reached church it was already almost fully packed
We walked from one end to the other to look for a seat
Church service was as usual great
Service ended at 7.30pm
I called Dad to see where they were
I had to join them for dinner
As I had to continue with the packing after dinner
Joanne was on her own
Sorry
Busy weekend you see

Dad came like the lightning
Had dinner till 8.30pm
I went home to change after that
We went back to Uncle Dino and Aunt Angie's house at about 8.45pm
We started packing again at 9pm
Uncle Eric and Aunt Juwena came over too
But they were helping to watch soccer
Haha

We packed till about 1.30am and Uncle Dino sent us home
The packing wasn't complete
But it was mostly done
Uncle Dino and Aunt Angie did the rest of the packing on their own
Elder sister cooked supper for us
By the time we bathe and ate, it was already close to 3am

Sunday morning was another early day
Woke up about 9plus am
I was supposed to wake up at 7.30am
But Dad and Mum saw me deep in sleep and decided not to wake me up
I was awaken by the shifting of furniture

Younger sis didn't wake up cause she was sick
And no amount of noise could wake her up
I went into her room and saw her covering her ears with her hands
It was funny

I woke up and washed up
I then helped in the shifting
About 11 plus, Uncle Dino came to fetch me
I was to go down to Grandma house with him
We were supposed to go there and help shift the furniture
And we did

After Grandma house, we went to Uncle Patrick's(2nd uncle) house
We helped to shift the sofa and arrange it
Uncle Patrick was funny
He came up with some funny designs
Uncle Patrick's wife and children was laughing away
But in the end he went along with our arrangement

After Uncle Patrick's house, we went to Eldest Aunt and uncle-in-law house
We didn't help to shift anything
Uncle-in-law is very strong
He can lift the whole cabinet himself

We went home at about 2pm
We had lunch at home
For the 2nd day in a row, we were having chicken rice
Hahaha

Aunt Juwena, Aunt Angie and me went over to Uncle Dino and Aunt Angie's house again
Uncle Dino fetched us back as he was going for a haircut
We started packing the clothes into the luggages as soon as we reached
We tried to squeeze in as many
After that we walked back home with the luggages
The luggages were really heavy
I guess they weighed more than 8kg
When we were crossing the road, the bus 358 stopped in front of us
When we were going up the staircase leading to my house, the 358 went pass us
I started laughing and said y didn't we take the bus
The bus driver must be laughing at us
Haha
I stop laughing and climbed up 2 steps of the staircase
Suddenly I started laughing again
This time I almost fell backwards
Aunt Juwena quickly pushed me forward

After reaching home, we unloaded the luggages and went back to Uncle Dino and Aunt Angie's house again
We started packing again
This time, Uncle Dino fetched us back
We went home and unloaded the luggages and Uncle Dino fetched us back again
It was the final packing of clothes
At the same time we carried pails over
I was like a clown trying to balance the pails

We reached home then waited for the rest to be done with their work
We went for dinner after that
Everyone seemed to be famish
We all ate a lot
I ate till I could hardly walk
After dinner we all went home for a rest

These 2 days of shifting made me ached all over
Till today I'm still aching
But it was good physical training

sch's starting

2006-06-23T18:33:00.000+08:00

School's starting in 2 days
homework all done
Was watching soccer this morning
The match was exciting
A guy from the opposite block was screaming goal loudly
I slept only at 6am
Woke up at 11am for breakfast
Came back and slept till 4plus
Tonight I will be watching soccer again
But I might be sleeping a few hours before it starts

Thought of going tanning today
But the weather forecast said it was going to rain
Unfortunately the forecast was inaccurate
It didn't rain at all

Tml I got to go and help my aunt pack her house
Then after that I will be going to CHC with Joanne and Mel I think

Sunday will be shifting of houses
Aunt Angie and Uncle Dino will be shifting in to stay with us
They bought a new house and have sold their old house
It's a good thing
Cause I will get to watch the soccer matches
Uncle Dino got sign up for world cup matches
Hahaa!!

Dunks

2006-06-13T01:51:00.000+08:00

Finally completed my A maths hw
Left with Eng and Combine humanities
Hope to finish within this week
So that I can rest next week
Haha
Tml or rather I will be out from morning
Cause younger sis is going to her GG HQ
Then mum and me will send elder sis to school
Mum and me will then drive down to town
I'm going to look for my dunks
Hope to find a brown one
Brown shoes are easier to match with clothes
My current shoes are gone
I almost fell down that day while wearing them
So dad told me to get a new pair of shoes
And mum's going to pay
Haha
I thought of paying half of the bill myself
Got to go and sleep already
If not I will be too tired to look for my dunks

Yuan lai lyrics

2006-06-04T00:24:00.000+08:00

jie deng ban zhu wo yan qian xia yi bu
la chang de ying zi chao nong de hui gu
dian hua ting reng liu zhe ni de hua
yi ju hua diao yi di lei
jin wan de wo hui shi ru he ru shui

yuan lai zui teng tong de piao qing jing shi mei you qing xu
yuan lai zui can ren de hua mian ke yi tian yan mi yu
wo bu dong de ru he geng ai ni
ying zi feng ci de gen zhe wo nan fen nan li

yuan lai zui gu dan de shi wo hai shi na me xiang ni
yuan lai zui bei ai de shi wo bu neng mian dui zi ji
ni shou de gan jing wo ye hui bu liu yi dian hen ji

shuo gu shi ye yao xiang shi zhen di
ke shi bie chu dong na xie hui yi
jin ye ni shuo le zui hou yi ju
yi ju hua diao yi di lei
kan lai jin wan de wo hen nan ru shui

yuan lai zui teng tong de piao qing jing shi mei you qing xu
yuan lai zui can ren de hua mian ke yi tian yan mi yu
wo bu dong de ru he geng ai ni
ying zi feng ci de gen zhe wo nan fen nan li

yuan lai zui gu dan de shi wo hai shi na me xiang ni
yuan lai zui bei ai de shi wo bu neng mian dui zi ji
ni shou de gan jing wo ye hui bu liu yi dian hen ji

yuan lai zui teng tong de piao qing jing shi mei you qing xu
yuan lai zui can ren de hua mian ke yi tian yan mi yu
wo bu dong de ru he geng ai ni
ying zi feng ci de gen zhe wo nan fen nan li

yuan lai zui gu dan de shi wo hai shi na me xiang ni
yuan lai zui bei ai de shi wo bu neng mian dui zi ji
ni shou de gan jing wo ye hui bu liu yi dian hen ji

Finished physics hw!

2006-06-04T00:23:00.000+08:00

I finally finished my physics homework
One subject down
Left with quite alot still
Hope to finish 1 subject in every 2 to 3 days
Went out for dinner then went to Swensens for ice cream

Last day of structured programme

2006-06-02T16:19:00.000+08:00

Finally structured programme is over
But there's not really a difference
Cause we have to go back for the second week
I guess I will go back for Physics and E maths
But I dont feel like going for E maths
Cause Mrs Low will be asking Mr Lim to pass us our A maths homework
Haha

Got tons of homework this time
Every subject 3 sets
Biology got 3 sets of MCQ
Chemistry got 4 sets of exam papers and 1 topical revision
Physics got 2 sets of exam papers and 2 topical revision
3 sets of E maths exam papers
3 sets of A maths exam papers
SS we got 2 SBQ and 1 structured questions
Geography we got 3 structured questions
English got tons too
2 compo and 20 topics of "oral" practice
The "oral" practice has to be written out
Chinese we got no homework

I think Im gonna be very busy completing them =(

o level chi tml

2006-05-28T22:11:00.000+08:00

I was not in the right state of mind yesterday
Some weird things happened
Went out in the morning to get lunch for my family
I went to the CHICKEN RICE STALL to buy DUCK RICE
I didnt realise my mistake until
The uncle said "We dont sell duck, we only sell chicken."
Kinda dumb of me

Then went out with Joanne to watch a show at cine
We watched over the hedge
It's funny
Everybody should go and watch it
Wanted to watch Poseidon too
But had no time
After the show we went to meet someone at J8
Ate pastamania and only Joanne n me was left
Went to popular and took a train home
While waiting for the train at Raffles place
I found a place which was super hot like an oven
Then I called Joanne to come over
She didnt want
Then I walked over and pushed her in
I think her slipper had no grip
And she almost fell
Hahaha
Im kind of evil
I was in a state of shock then
And I was laughing away after that
Then went to one of the shops
At Pasir Ris MRT station to get Mel's present
Went to DTE cause Joanne wanted to buy back KFC
Then bus-ed home

Today was a great day
Cause I went to church
Church rocks!
God rocks too!
Church was fun today
After church went to PP to buy household items
Then we went to Aunty's house
To get rice dumplings
Then we went to Sembawang to eat dinner
And came home to watch SG idol
Now Im feeling scared and kinda panicky
Scared I will forget the format for letter writing
And that I will black out tml

To everyone going for tml's paper
All the best and good luck

Remember to bring:
Confirmation slip(just in case)
Dictionary
I.C
Stationary(excluding correction tape)
Jacket(if your school hall is air conditioned)
Notes for the compo writing

bored at home

2006-05-21T16:41:00.000+08:00

So super bored at home
Went to church today
It was earlier today
Cause got 2 services
Then went for lunch with cousins
It was wendy's b'day
And she was going back to Philippines
After lunch sent sis to bugis
And dad sent us home
So bored today
Nothing to do
After exams but got no programmes

Mum n dad are having cold war
I find it so dumb
Dont bother abt them already
A house now doesnt look like a house
Doesnt feel like a house

Prac exam for combine sci today

2006-05-19T21:47:00.000+08:00

Got back english and e maths paper 2 results today
I got 34.5/50 for english paper 2
And 67/100 for e maths paper 2

Had prac exam for combine sci today
Didnt have enough time to finish and had to rush
A "crocodile"(crocodile clips) bit me
Haha
Was in a rush so a bit careless
Had a question for test of carbon dioxide
Haha
Hwee Sze n me were doing our exams at the same speed
So we looked at each other's experiment for the test of carbon dioxide
Then we realised that we got the same results
And proceeded with the next experiment
I poured too much sodium hydroxide and it overflowed
Was in a rush
Not enough time
And I got 2 unknown cuts from nowhere
Haha
Prac exam wasnt that bad after all

prac exam for combine sci tml

2006-05-18T22:13:00.000+08:00

There's prac exam for combine sci tml
We know what's coming out for physics already
As for chem, we got no idea
But we got the chapters
And can spot questions
Haha

Spent the whole day shifting the house today
Finally packed everything into place
I now have only one cupboard to put my clothes
Squeezed all of them into a cupboard
And I found out that my younger sis has more clothes than me
The number of shirts she have is more than the number of clothes I have
And all my shorts now are folded
And therefore does not needed to be ironed anymore
Mum can iron a few pieces of clothes lesser
Kind of tired after packing and went to sleep
Wanted to catch a show today
But nobody wanted to go out
I didnt mind going out alone
But mum said help to shift the stuffs
And great,
I shifted till I lost track of time

Got to go and study for tml's prac now

More results

2006-05-17T18:53:00.000+08:00

Got back:
E maths paper 1-64/80
Physics-77/85
Chinese-97.5/140
Geog-33/50
SS-25/50
A maths paper 1-63/80
A maths paper 2-31/80

Chinese was quite surprising
Got 75 on the dot for the overall
Which means it is my first A1 for chinese since sec 3
Was really happy when Mr Luo read out the marks
I think quite alot of us got As

But papers following physics was horrible
SS studied hard but just passed
Sacrificed sleep just to get a pass
Geog was surprising too
I did a question which I did not understood got an X for it
But I luckily I didnt do that badly for the paper
If not combine humanities results would be worse

I failed my A maths paper 2
Quite disappointed
Cause I din do a 8 marks question
And I could do the question after I handed in my script
Im just a dumb person

Currently got 2 C5s already
My target for L1R5 less than 10 is gone
Impossible already
Today's results were simply bad just disappointing

Guess mid-years arent that important
It's useless for the 4Es
So all 4Es if you did badly dont be sad about it
Prelims is more important n O's is most important
Let's just let the mid year pass

Might not be online tonight
Dad's gonna do the wiring again
Boring
Especially when tomorrow is no school day

exams results r back..

2006-05-16T16:52:00.000+08:00

Today I went to school feeling sick
Still have a bit of flu and a bit of headache
Yesterday was worse
The tap to my nose was left on
Hahaha
We got back our results for some papers
Got back my bio, chem and english paper 1
My bio was quite up to my expectations?
Got quite good for MCQ and Essay questions
Died in Section A of paper 2
Chem was quite badly done
Died in Essay questions
Did the question which I shouldnt have done
A mistake was all it took to pull my marks down
English paper 1 was a surprise
I did better than I usually do
Getting more results tomorrow
I'm going to be dead for A and E maths
I want my A2 at least
I dare not think about Chinese
Hope to get an A2 though
Aiming to get at least A2 for all subjects
There's bio practical exam tomorrow
Shall prepare for it later

I never want to live without you

exams over.!

2006-05-10T18:31:00.000+08:00

Exams are officially over!
And I got 4 days of rest
Monday was supposed to be marking day
But we got chinese o level sample exam
So gotta go back
Anyway it's to our advantage
At least we can see the format
Exams have drained me of my sleep
So I have to replenish it back

finished bio at last!

2006-05-01T19:39:00.000+08:00

Yeah Man!!
Finally finished 24 chap of bio!!
24 hours of non stop work has paid off!!
Didnt get to sleep for the night
But now im feeling happy
Cause i finished my entire bio syllabus
Tried not to refer as much as possible
And found out that got so many things haven learn before
Had to refer sometimes while doing
At the same time learn and absorb
Listened to 98.7 through the night
Got lots of damn nice songs
Listened for more than 24 hours
From the last DJ yesterday to the national anthem this morning
Haha!
I guess my Hi-fi set is gonna explode
But I just switched it off
Dont wanna spoil it
Haha!!
SS is gonna be another horror!
But cannot spend 24 hours non stop already
No more public holiday or weekend to do so
Tired tired now!!
Eyes are half asleep and brain is half dead!
Haha!
I need secretion of adrenaline!

after so long finally..

2006-04-21T23:34:00.000+08:00

Haven't been doing much this week
Have been busy with work again
Mid year exams are starting next week
Best of luck to everyone

Today was supposed to watch show but didnt in the end
But I got debbi
Smaller version of debbi to hang on my phone
=D Big smiles
Haven smiled that wide for quite a while

To you:
I will love you forever like the open sea which has no end
Hope you will too
I really miss you

speech day

2006-04-14T12:02:00.000+08:00

Yesterday our school was holding speech day
It was also the end of our CCA
Tuesday we'll be going there to fill up our CCA form
Back to speech day
The parade was kind of a success?
I dont know..
But the band was playing well I guess
Everyone was giving their best
Mong Tieng said the cornets were very loud
Louder than usual..
Haha!
Maybe last time playing with each other so I played very loud?
Or maybe all of us ate the wrong thing?
HAHA!
It's now Cassandra's and Ashraf's turn to take charge of the cornet section!
Good luck to both of you!
Haha!!

Then the prize winners in the parade went up to the hall and got seated down..
It took a very long time before the prize giving ceremony started..
Abt 1 and a half hours later?
But it's okie..
The most embarrassing thing that night was the ceremony..
The MC left out Liyana's, Cheryl's, Jun Yuan's and my name..
And the four of us had to walk away to the side..
Just the four of us went up again after the entire Sec 4s(2005) came down..
Was so funnny..
Good memories of Speech Day..

Then went out for dinner later
Had a great time
Four ppl laughing and laughing

sentosa trip

2006-04-09T21:37:00.000+08:00

Had lots of fun today!
Got abit of tan and redness
Shuming went crazy when we played with the waves
She couldnt remain at her position
She just floated around
Haha!
And ML is certified a gu1 niang
Her actions show it all
Shuming got dragged all the way from the shore down to the water
Haha!
ML even took a few photos of it
Shuming is very very heavy, couldnt move her
Haha!
But somehow or rather,
ML and I still manage to drag her in
Haha!
Was madness at Sentosa today..

2 years

2006-04-08T12:31:00.000+08:00

Isnt it fast
2 years have just passed like this
From one end to the other end
We might not be together now
But maybe in future we might
I lived these two years with you and without you
When I had you I didnt treasure
And after I lost you
I regretted
What a fool I have been
The same person who loved you, hurted you
After all that,
I said I was never gonna love another and hurt you again
And I did as I said
And I continued to love you more
I told myself nobody can take your place
It's either you or no one
And it's true
I lived without you by my side
But with a hope that you will come back someday
For as long as you are with me,
I will be happy

I will be waiting till you come back
No one can love you like I do
We still have a journey waiting for us to start

I just feel like holding you,
Right here,
Right now

I will love you
And someday we will be living in a place of our own
Nothing anyone says is going to stop us
No one will step into our lives again

Give me your hand like you did in the past,
Will you?

2006-03-29T17:08:00.000+08:00

RULES!:
Express your Love for SE7EN and get others to know more about you.
Copy and Paste the following into your own blog and complete all
SE7EN bullets of the SE7EN questions.
Then, pick SE7EN ppl to pass it on!
Have fun!

7 things that make me smile:
1. *her
2. Seeing *her
3. Dreaming of *her
4. Talking to *her
5. Playing the drums
6. Playing the cornet
7. Outing with my family

7 ways to win my heart:
1. Unless you are *her
2. Unless you are *her
3. Unless you are *her
4. Unless you are *her
5. Unless you are *her
6. Unless you are *her
7. Unless you are *her

7 things I believe in:
1. I will be with *her one day
2. Everlasting Love
3. Work hard and get what I want
4. Earn my own keep
5. Doing something I like
6. The world will accept crooks one day
7. God

7 things i'm afraid of:
1. *her avoiding me
2. *her scolding me
3. *her leaving me
4. My wishes will not come true
5. I will not reach my dreams
6. Health worsen
7. Die for no rhyme or reason

7 things i do everyday:
1. Think of *her
2. Sleep
3. Eat
4. Drink
5. Bathe
6. Switch on my phone
7. Wash my face

7 people i wanna see right now:
1. *her
2. *her
3. *her
4. *her
5. *her
6. *her
7. *her

7 people who should also do this:
1. Yvonne
2. Esther
3. Meiling
4. Shu Ming
5. Pei Ying
6. Valerie
7. Weiling

CME work

2006-03-26T19:13:00.000+08:00

I don't know why
But our CME book has a chapter on marriage
And there's one page with requires us to write out our own marriage vow

And my marriage vow goes like this:
I promise to give you the best I can provide you with
And never let you drop any tears for me.
I would love you more than myself
and all that I have is yours.
Through difficult times,
my love will not sway.
Through better times,
I will not be unfaithful.
My love for you will stay steadfast forever
And I would only love you.
Till the day I'm gone,
I would still be loving you.

Copyrighted! Don't copy!
This vow is written for one person
But I might not have a chance to say this.

Even then everything is unpredictable.
I might have a chance one day.
But I know at this moment in time
I really do love you
And in the future
I will still love you

Update over the week

2006-03-26T18:57:00.000+08:00

Haven't blogged for a week now
I'm abit lazy and abit busy
But laziness makes up most of it
So let's see what I have been doing this week
Nothing much actually
Going to school having tests and CCA and normal timetable
That's about it I guess
School is like a routine
We are doing the same thing almost everyday
Kinda boring
What to do
Just pray hard that O's come quickly
And then I shall do something I like
We are starting revision for E maths already
Kind of fast
The other subjects haven't finish syllabus yet
Maybe we'll finish them soon?

Tomorrow got Speech Day Rehersal
So that means go chinese remedial halfway can go off
Got to report at 3pm
I think I will leave class at 2.55pm?

Looking forward to the parade
Cause it's my last performance with the band
3 years have passed so quickly
From the time I entered band
Till the time I'm going to leave on 13 April

All the best to Crestwinds
May you all reach a higher level which we never achieved

40 of us would be going to perform at Tao Nan Primary this Friday
Hope we will enjoy ourselves and not pressurize ourselves too much

If you want others to enjoy your music, you must first enjoy playing the music

holidays are over soon

2006-03-18T21:26:00.000+08:00

One more day left to school reopen
Hasnt been really a holiday for me
Went back to school everyday either for lessons or band or both
Had to rush my homework still
I think I lost weight this holidays
Haven been eating much
Unlike the other holidays where I keep eating and grow fatter and fatter
Finally finished my holiday assignments after many days of late sleep
But I haven done my E and A maths weekend assignment
Cause I dont know how to do
Im getting "smarter" nowadays
And this year is crucial
Haha!
This holiday is the first holiday which I never go out with my friends at all
Broke many of my records this holidays
Didnt sleep much
Didnt eat much
Study alot
Killed many brain cells
Lost a lot of hair
Didnt go out even for more than 2 days
And many more!
The most disappointing is I never eat and sleep much
So wasted!
I do my homework until super stress
Do for so long still haven finish
Forgot to do all the daily stuff like eating and drinking
Tonight shall relax and continue studying tml again
Got Biology Common Test coming up
ARGH!!
PULL HAIR!!
SOMEBODY SAVE ME!!!

I LOVE YOU!

2006-03-10T20:20:00.000+08:00

Even if the whole world is gonna forsake you
You can count on me
I will not forsake or leave you again
There is always someone loving you
And I'm that person
I'm willing to stay by your side forever
Giving you all the support you need
I will lend you my shoulder whenever you are tired or wish to cry
It hurts to see you sad
And I don't want anyone to hurt you
Even when you are next to me
I'm still missing you
3 words is all I wanna say:
I LOVE YOU

Finished X-country finally

2006-03-10T20:05:00.000+08:00

Kinda happy today
Finshed X-country today
I did try to run as much as I could
But still not top 30
Cant blame la
Im a lazy person who doesnt wanna train
But Im gonna train for NAFA I think
I wanna get a good NAFA result
Kinda enjoyed X-country this year
I think I ran more this year then the past few years

Tml gonna go back to school for PTM
Sian la
Gotta wake up early go take number
So lame man
See teacher also must take number like seeing doctor like that
Im kinda anxious for tml
Hope I get a good start for the year

Just realised that I have known you for quite long

2006-03-08T20:41:00.000+08:00

Just realised that I have known you for quite some time already
From the first time I saw you since sec 1 it's already 3 years?
From the time that I fell for you it's been 2 years already
Although officially it's not yet 2 years
It's definitely more than 2 years
But it doesn't feel so long
I didn't know that we have known each other for so long
Just thinking back on how much we have changed is a prove of how long we have known each other

We shared good and bad times together
Even though those bad times cannot be forgotten
The good times have a larger impact on me
Those times are really the joy of my life
I never felt that happy before
It was you who changed my life
Someone who gave me a meaning for living
We went through times of which both of us were hurt
But we never showed it out
And it led to more distance between us
I went through times when my heart really ached
Times when it was hard to breathe

If I didn't let you make that decision that time we probably won't be like this now
But we both learnt something from that experience
I sincerely hope and pray that we will be together one day
I'm waiting for you to complete the missing piece in my heart

Christian Bautista- The Way You Look At Me

2006-03-05T23:09:00.000+08:00

Christian Bautista- The Way You Look At Me

No one ever saw me like you do
All the things that I could add up to
I never knew just what a smile was worth
But your eyes say everything without a single word

Coz there's something in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's nothing in this world I can't be
I'd never know what you see
But there's something in the way you look at me

If I could freeze the moment in my mind
Be the second that you touch your lips to mine
I'd like to stop the clock make time stand still
Coz baby this is just the way I always wanna feel

Coz there's something in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's nothing in this world I can't be
I'd never know what you see
But there's something in the way you look at me

I don't know how or why
I feel different in your eyes
All I know is that it happens everytime

Coz there's something in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows you're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's nothing in this world I can't be
I'd never know what you see
But there's something in the way you look at me

The way you look at me

scar on my knee..

2006-03-04T22:54:00.000+08:00

Just came back from marina square
Went there for dinner with my family at the same time go to the supermarket
Brought my younger sis to LJS for dinner
While the rest went to eat at the food court
They go there eat duck I think
Bought quite alot of things and had to walk all the way to Millenia Walk
Cause the car was parked there and every other carpark was full
Carry all those stuff until my hand numb
Got down the car and my younger sister being so skinny and had "butter" legs fell down
She came upstairs and applied some medicine
She came into my room to apply
Then she was screaming away
Bet she was gonna cry anytime
Then I told her your leg's injury is nothing
Small injury only
My knees got a "nicer" injury each
Two scars which never could fade away
It's coming to a year since I fell
But I guess I was willing to fall
Remembered that time I did everything with much difficultly
Could hardly walk or get sitted
But it's okay
The injury will allow me to remember someone and some things
Part of my memory of you

Journey is longer than usual..

2006-03-03T21:32:00.000+08:00

Roads that we walked together seemed to bring us to our destination so quickly,
I dont feel tired at all with all that walking and I really cherish those times
But now when I walk those roads alone
Those roads seem so far and never ending
And after a while I felt very tired
I felt like resting
How I wish you would be there with me again
I dont wanna be walking without you by my side
I dont know which friend I can trust
But I know I can trust you
Let me keep you in my heart forever
I want to hold on to your hand and walk down the long journey we have in front of us

The road is long and tiring but I will reach my destination one day
And my destination will be my destiny
And my destiny is you

went for Ee Ming's ROM

2006-03-03T20:30:00.000+08:00

Nthing much on this week
Had tests and the usual hw
This week got no more weekend homework
Finished them during self-study period
Im gonna be very very free this weekend
So guess im gonna sleep?
Had some backache for the whole week already
Now getting better
Only hurts abit
But still cant go running
Dont wanna cause more injury

Today didnt go for band
I went for Ee Ming's ROM
It was held at a restaurant at Singapore Botanica Gardens
The scenery is really nice there
Took some pics of the scenery
The ceremony started at about 3.40pm
And lasted for about half an hour
Then had early dinner there
After that I had to come back on my own after hitching a ride from my cousin to Orchard

today's just not the right day

2006-02-24T21:14:00.000+08:00

Band wasnt in the usual state today
Guess it's expected
For a moment we were all worrying the Mr Kel wasnt gonna come
Luckily the next moment he came and we just finished signing the card
Not everybody signed the card
Mr Kel was wearing dark colours today from head to toe
Anyone could sense that he's really sad
Nobody had mood for band
Some cried and many others held on to their tears
I tried to console those ppl
I sort of managed to make them stop crying
Hope I realy did help them
I know that it wouldnt last long but at least at that moment
Could tell that everyone didnt feel like doing sectionals
The teacher(s) are just cold blooded
Spare no thoughts for us
Since there were no teachers there
I left it to them to decide whether they wanna continue doing sectionals or just sit there
But everybody no mood
I did something really wrong this time
I shouldnt have invited Mr Kel to PRCS to be conductor in the first place

went to grandma hse today

2006-02-19T21:45:00.000+08:00

Went to grandma's house today
Saw esther again as usual
Haha
Sunday still see her whenever i go to grandma's house
She just asked me couple of physics tys qns then she went back le
And I went back to eat my laksa
(My cousins)Derek, Valerie, Belinda and I decided to go to the shopping centre near grandma's house
The shopping centre has got nothing except a cinema, Sportslink, NTUC and some shops
So we decided to go to Suntec
Everyone except derek was wearing shorts, t-shirt and slippers
I called my dad to come and fetch us there
My dad's real funny
Cause my cousins never sat the car before
Then they were saying about the interior and the comfortable seats
My dad disturb them that it's a spaceship
Then the car got a button to a box
My cousin asked and my dad said it was for us to release our seats in emergencies
I didnt know that my dad was so witty and funny
Then he drove us there and we went to shop on our own
Derek couldnt find the shoes he wanted
The sizes were all gone
Then he treated us to Marche
But we only ate desert
Cause dinner was waiting for us at grandma's house
After that we wanted to get a cab home
So we decided to walk to the main road outside
But who knows we continued walking till we reached the start of the highway
Then we decided to walk to the main gate of "The Gateway"
Continued walking till Raffles Hospital
We got on a cab as soon as we got there
The cabby was funny la
He was like wah ur walk from Suntec till here already half the journey back to Whampoa might as well continue to walk there
Haha
The On family being crazy people of course didnt mind him saying that
We all know that he was joking
Where got cabby got job to do still complain
He's quite a kind person
He supposed to change shift already but then since Whampoa was quite near he didnt mind fetching us there
Reached grandma's house and saw the usual sight
The guys were playing "chap sa ki"
And the ladies were playing mahjong
So the kids just did their own stuff
Grandma cooked mee sua for dinner
The guys went to buy durian but I didnt eat
I was only interested in sleeping
So I sat on the chair and leaned against the wall and fell asleep
Slept for quite a while
Went home after that

human are weird creatures

2006-02-17T22:58:00.000+08:00

Human are weird creatures
Sometimes we know what will take place due to an action
but we still carry on with that action
We know that there will be awkwardness
but we still do it
We could have just simply avoid it
and make things better
Why didnt I do it
I thought of it before
but in the end I didnt do it
It might seem like it doesnt matter to me
but it actually does
Even before the moment I stepped out of the house
I was still hesitating
Shall stop here
Since it has taken place
Time wont turn back and let me change my decision

Not many ppl turned up for band again
It's kinda demoralising
It's not the way to do things
I dont know if it's the attendance or is it some other reasons
But I think Im beginning to dread coming for band prac
Maybe the passion has died
It's just not the place Im supposed to be in
But since Im in it
I dont have a choice
I will do all I can to keep it going until the day I step down officially
I guess I will wash my hands off entirely when I step down

Im vexed enough to go crazy now..

valentine's day

2006-02-14T23:07:00.000+08:00

valentine's day today
but im alone
with only a can of beer and my books
how many years have i been passing valentine's day alone
i guess from the day i was born till now
i wonder when will i ever be not spending valentine's day alone
maybe next year maybe never
hopefully is next year
i can have the first valentine's day dinner with you next year
happy valentine's day
i nv spend much time with you today
but at least you are still there
i will love you now and forever
i will always be there to listen to you and support you

Shayne Ward-That's My Goal

2006-02-11T15:28:00.000+08:00

Shayne Ward-That's My Goal

Hmmmm yea yea yeaaa

You know where I come from
You know my story
You know why I'm standing here
Tonight
Please don't go
Don't be in a hurry
I'm here to make it clear
Make it right

Well I know I've acted foolish
But I promise you no more
I've finally found that something
Worth reaching for

I'm not here to say I'm sorry
I'm not here to lie to you
I'm here to say I'm ready
That I've finally thought it through
I'm not here to let your love go
I'm not giving up oh no
I'm here to win your heart and soul
That's my goal

Please don't go
You know that I need you
I can't breathe without you
Live without you
Be without you
Well I know I've acted foolish
But I promise you no more
No more

I'm not here to say I'm sorry
I'm not here to lie to you
I'm here to say I'm ready
That I've finally thought it through
I'm not here to let your love go
I'm not giving up oh no
I'm here to win your heart and soul
That's my goal

Well I won't stop believing
That we will be leaving together
So when I say I love you
I'll mean it forever and ever
Ever and ever

I'm not here to say I'm sorry
I'm not here to say I'm sorry
I'm not here to lie to you
I'm here to say I'm ready
That I've finally thought it through
(Oh I'm ready)
I'm not here to let your love go
I'm not giving up oh no
I'm here to win your heart and soul
(That's why I'm here babe)
Yes I'm here to win your heart and soul
That's my goal
That's my goal

finish of public holiday back to sch

2006-01-31T20:12:00.000+08:00

after today no more holiday
gotta go back to sch
but for those who are doing business is a good day to open
then tml also good for cutting hair
so i suppose tml will have alot of ppl cutting their hair
but still cny for another 12 more days
haha
still got chances of getting ang bao
but ang bao not really important la
more important is family reunion
haha
since when did i start to put family that important
but my family is made up of a bunch of great ppl
always have alot of fun when with them
we can come up with all sorts of things and jokes
i love my family okie
cny this year dont feel like cny
feels like some weekend
haha
feel so cheated of my weekend
but still cny right
got abit of the cny fun and mood la

I miss you

2006-01-28T09:34:00.000+08:00

Looks like we have been getting further
Maybe we are just too busy
We do not have much time for each other now
Maybe is some other reasons
I dont know

After so long
For more than a year
I still haven told you all that I wanna tell you
I guess I am really a failure at this
I will try to tell you when I am ready okay
I promise

Maybe I have sank in too deep to come out
I made my decision
But you haven seemed to have made yours
Maybe I am wrong
But I wanna know your decision
Your decision need not to take place now
It can take place when you think your ready

Maybe this will be a long wait
And I will miss you like crazy
Im already missing you
Even if I dont see you for a minute
I start to miss you
What's more if I wont get to see you for long

I very sure now that I really love you
It may be a one-sided love maybe two-sided
But I will not give up

Somebody asked me this
"What if you* get married with someone else
Will I still wait?"
I said "I would continue waiting"

what's up these few days..

2006-01-28T09:15:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!
Early wishing cause I wont be coming home tonight
Will only be home on Sunday morning
Then leave again after sleeping for few hours
Chinese New Year is the time of year which I lose sleep
Haha

Kinda busy this week with all the tests
Got 4 tests and 1 surprise test this week
So altogether got 5 tests
Supposed to have more
But already reach the limit for the week
On wed after cny
We are gonna have test again
The whole time we are having test
Guess this is what happens when we are sitting for O's

Im very tired already
Tired from carrying all those responsibilities
Guess I will just continue carrying them till the end of O's
After that I think I need a break
Even if I were to work
I would take a month break first
I need to relax
Im already too stressed
Cannot take this any longer

In 2 months time
It will be time to step down
I will be less stress then
After 3 and a half years in band
I feel that that's not the place I wanna be in
I do like music
But I like sports more
Maybe it's because I have been into sports at a young age
From badminton to swimming to sea sports
When Im involved with sports
I feel much relax and happier
Guess I will nv enter a band room again
But I will still carry on playing drums
But for this year I dont think I wanna play drums
As a leisure
I dont mind
But I dont wanna get involved in playing for church this year
Next year I will be involved again

im afraid of rainy days

2006-01-14T21:44:00.000+08:00

a question for everyone..
what if u wake up one day and find someone close to u missing what will u do?

at this point of time
one of my greatest fears is rainy days
whenever it rains i feel so lonely
and i start thinking of everything again
i wish that someone will be there with me but she isnt there
maybe there's only me in my world
even when i open the door to her
she nv seems to step in
i wish that it will change one day
but so far it nv changes
i waited abt 1 year but im still standing here alone
maybe it's not her who has nv stepped in
but i didnt step into her life in the first place
everytime we seem close to being together again
but sadly we nv reach that point
maybe what happened 1 year and 3 months ago still give u the shivers
that's y u cannot accept me still
i will give u time
i will leave u alone to think through and make ur choice
but whoever may be ur ultimate choice doesnt change my stand
i will always be there for you and love you unconditionally for as long as i live
and i will be waiting for you still

Cascada - Everytime We Touch Lyrics

2006-01-11T22:16:00.000+08:00

Cascada - Everytime We Touch Lyrics

I still hear your voice, when you sleep next to me.
I still feel your touch in my dreams.
Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why.
Without you it's hard to survive.

Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
I need you by my side.
Cause everytime we touch, I feel the static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat slow.
I can't let you go.
I want you in my life.

Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky.
They wipe away tears that I cry.
The good and the bad times, we've been through them all.
You make me rise when I fall.

Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
I need you by my side.
Cause everytime we touch, I feel the static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat slow.
I can't let you go.
I want you in my life.

Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss, I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast.
I want this to last.
I need u by my side.

din blog yesterday

2006-01-09T22:03:00.000+08:00

for probably the first time in history
i din blog on the 8th which was yesterday
there was a jam in my brain
wasnt thinking straight too

so far i haven really adjusted to schooling again
having to wake up early and try not to fall asleep in lessons
but so far i have been falling asleep in lessons
not used to working my brain in the morning
this year kinda stressed up
first day of sch and we start studying
so that means im gonna be real busy on books down the road
for now i shall stop thinking of study
gotta enjoy also

tml i will be out with my cousin to find my new year clothes
im a failure in this
i just intend to look for one dark red long sleeve shirt for the first day
and i think for the rest of the days im gonna wear black?
haha!!
so inauspicious to wear black
but i dont wanna buy too many bright colours shirt knowing i wouldnt wear them
but maybe i wouldnt even find a shirt for the first day
so we shall see
haha!

still here..

2006-01-07T18:55:00.000+08:00

i seriously need loads and tons of courage
sometimes there are things which i want to tell you
but everytime i see or hear your voice i just cant say them out
and i get lost from there
sometimes i dont say them out
cause i dont know if i should
i dont want you to get the wrong idea
sometimes im on the verge of asking something
but you sort of tell me your answer before i ask my question
so i decide to keep those words back
sometimes things dont go the way i want them to
and i will just be taken by shock and go what to do now
everytime my answer is the same
i just keep them back and take it that nothing was supposed to happen

length of time doesnt matter
i will wait for you
i believe you are back
maybe im wrong
but you wont accept yet
you have your reason and i understand
i have gone in deep and im gonna be stubborn
i wont come out
i wish this isnt going to be a ride
and find ourselves back at the same point again

i wonder if tml's date still matters to you
it does matter to me
but as for you, you have to answer this question yourself
i cant help you answer even though im quite sure of your answer
tell me if im right

New year..

2006-01-02T02:13:00.000+08:00

hey!
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL YOU PPL OUT THERE..
MAY ALL UR WISHES AND DREAMS COME TRUE..
went for countdown party 2 nights before..
felt that the techno abit too soft..
should have been louder and they should increase the bass by loads man..
wahaha!!

dead Christmas

2005-12-25T20:48:00.000+08:00

Christmas this year doesnt seem like Christmas
no countdown
no mood
everything wrong
there's something missing
this year and last few years just so diff
im just beginning to bury myself in my books and music
but soon i will be fading away from music
i dont even feel like playing com some time
my soul's gone
find it hard to even find joy
i dont know what's wrong
nvm
i wont think of shorting my life
too many things i wish to do and haven do
im just afraid i might give up on everyone
sometimes being alone feels so good
i dont know
i just wanna go think it over all over again

Christmas day..

2005-12-25T20:02:00.000+08:00

hey everyone out there..
haha!!
Merry Christmas to all..
May all ur wishes come true ..
just like i wish mine would come true..

christmas is coming

2005-12-21T18:20:00.000+08:00

Christmas is coming
hohoho!
haha!!
i've got one Christmas wish for this year
i dont think i need to say much
you should know what i mean
i dont want anything for Christmas
i only want you
that's the best present i could ever get
only you can make this wish oome true

this dream seemed so real

2005-12-14T20:03:00.000+08:00

man!
this morning had this freaky dream..

i dreamt that i died..
i died because i was caught for underage smoking
i was 16 years old when i got caught
i died and when to this place
had this sort of like guardian to accompany me
as i was standing at something like a window and looking at earth
i was blaming myself for being so stupid to smoke and lose my life
i asked him whether there was any way to go back to earth
he told me that there was no way but to sneak back
but i had to be very careful that i dont get find out
if not i will nv be able to go to earth again
so i waited till the guards went off and i sneak to earth
i went to find my mum and dad first
they were sleeping already
and i woke them up
they were kinda shock to c me
i told them im already dead but have come back to see them
din talk much to them
just told them to take care and i love them
then i left their room
i went to the living room saw mt and her bro there
i got no idea why they were at my hse
they were counting something couldnt make out what was that
then i walked back to my room
was really late at night already close to midnight
suddenly my phone rang
it was esther
she was at *your hse
she asked me whether i was surprised that she called me using *your hse phone
then i told her something like
"at least u can still get married i cannot"
then i said to esther that i can count on her to take care of *you
the phone call ended there
then i left to the place where i came from
at that point of time only my parents knew i have died my friends werent aware

back there i was thinking of coming to earth again for the last time
to ask my parents to treat *you well, help *you in any way they can and take care of *you cause i really love *you alot
i had to tell esther and mt that i was dead already and to ask them to help me take care of *you
the next and last person i had to go and break the news , spend some time with and talk to is *you

so i did come back again but i could only stay for 5 hours
i talked to my parents mt and esther for 2 hours
they agreed

there was 3 hours left
then i went to look *you
i told *you that i was dead already
i gave *you that ring which i was supposed to give to *you and my own ring
i told *you to keep them with *you cause im gone already
when *you think of me just take them out
*you started crying
*you didnt believe that i was dead already
i told *you that if *you ever find someone who loves *you like i do dont hesitate
then i gave *you the last hug
and i left

the whole dream ended here
i was crying in my dreams
and i woke up i found myself crying too
the dream was really real
i thought i was really dead
luckily i woke up and found myself still alive
i dont wanna die yet
there are too many things that i haven done
i told myself i nv wanna do something silly that will cause my life

maybe everyone should think abt what they were to do
if this wasnt a dream but really did happen
and it happened on you what are u gonna do
treasure life and spend it with your love ones
you nv know when ur life will end
i thought that i really died so now is like my 2nd life
im not gonna waste all my lifetime i have left
im gonna spend it with my loved ones
i want *you to be part of my life and share every moment with me

going out soon..

2005-12-09T13:47:00.000+08:00

yeah!
today afternoon im gonna take a break from books..
will be back at night to carry on with my books..
im gonna go to town today..
with xiao beani and jaer..
will be online at night..
anyone looking for me regarding anything just call my hp!

Happy 20th Anniversary..

2005-12-08T23:05:00.000+08:00

20th month today..
it's been a long time
but i dont want this to continue
i want to start this all over again with you
we have gone through so much
i should say we have gone through one of the toughest obstacles
after going through so much we should be very sure of our feelings for each other now
i know distance wont pull us apart
it will only make us miss each other more and waiting for the time we can spend together
it pulls us even closer
it makes us treasure every min spent together
even if it's for one min only
i will treasure it
every moment with you is my happiest moment in life
the feeling is just so right that no words can express that feeling
i know you are the one for me
im as sure as anyone can ever be
i will nv regret loving you so much
even though i know the price to pay is high
i will nv regret being with you
i cant bear to let u go every time we have to left each other
but we know we will meet up someday
and we'll look forward to that day
u are the one who gives me the strength to overcome all my fears

wo hen xiang ni, mei yi fen mei yi miao dou mei you wang guo ni..
wo hui yong wo de yi qie, rang ni mei tian dou kai xin, yong yuan gan jue de dao wo de ai..
wo ai ni..
yi zhi zai deng ni rang wo pang ni dai shang shu yu ni de jie zi..

post on outings..

2005-12-07T23:33:00.000+08:00

monday..
enjoyed myself thoroughly
trust me no words can describe how much i enjoyed myself
only those ppl will know
cause we enjoyed ourselves to the maximum
somebody made us laugh like there was no tomorrow
totally no image man trust me
but i dont mind u see
it's very common to me
everybody was laughing and having fun
caught a show n played arcade
bought quite alot of things and ate quite alot too
ate too full that i felt like sleeping
but this is all part of the fun right
without them it would be so incomplete
and without that somebody my life will be so incomplete

only u made me feel that type of happiness which i nv felt
only u made me feel truly in love
only u made me change my opinions on many things
only u made it possible for my life to be changed
only u have the way to my heart
only u do i want to spend the rest of my life with

today..
went out to tm
went out with my aus cousins
bought some stuff for my performance
got the bottom and shoes already
left the shirt haven buy
the shirt very easy to buy so no worries
missed talking to u online
cause i was out the entire night until 10pm

ben's wedding

2005-11-28T22:00:00.000+08:00

yesterday ben got married
actually he's already married with huilyn
the wedding dinner is just to officially announce their marriage
but the feeling of seeing them walk down that red carpet is good
i was wondering whether i would have a chance to do the same with you
yesterday drank abit of alcohol
got cheated twice
tar 2 cups of beer and 1 cup of whiskey
the whiskey go down my whole body hot ar
but better train up now
so that on my wedding wont get drunk
haha

i know now think of getting married abit early
i nv used to think of getting married
until i met u and started loving you
i told myself
getting married with someone u love is something very special
that's when i decided that i wanna marry you in future
when the time is right i will marry
my wedding might not have many guests
im not rich enough to have a very grand wedding
but i will make it as grand as possible
who comes and who doesnt dont really matter to me
more importantly is those who comes will give us their blessings
even if no one turns up, the wedding still goes on
to me a wedding is an affair of two ppl
the other ppl is just there to grace the occasion
hope to walk down that red carpet with you one day

all those memories will stay within me

2005-11-20T23:00:00.000+08:00

i went out happily but i din come back happily
suddenly everything became dark to me
my mind was blank
i was standing there in a daze
i just couldnt think of anything
my brain was dead
i just started sweating alot
i tried to lie to myself that it was not true
but i couldnt
cause i know it's true

we saw this day coming
but nv tot that it would come so soon
so much so i wanted to just walk away
and let those tears just drop
but i couldnt
i had to put a false front in front of grandma and cousins
i had to smile
i knew i couldnt
but i had to
i tried hard to fake a smile
i was really hard
it din last long
each fake smile lasted for a few seconds
and my face was all blank again

at last i could leave them
i din know what to do
but i only knew i wanted to get on that train back to pasir ris
i decided to look at those pictures
i felt so guilty and hurt
that smile on ur face was going to be gone again
that smile which u got back after all that hardships
the happiness that we finally shared after so long
the part of me that was lost and now found again
tears just started flooding
i told myself they arent going to drop
until i reach pasir ris
so i persevered and did it

i got on the bus
i decided where i wanted to alight
but after that phone call
i was started hesistating whether i should alight
should i or should i not
was what i was thinking off stops after stops
finally i made up my mind
i chose to alight there
something told me either u go or u regret
i knew exactly what to do and where was the right place
even at the point of that place
i was still thinking whether to look up or not
i finally found that courage and looked up
it was bright
but the windows werent open
probably cause it was raining
from that moment
i knew the tears had to come down
i do not have the ability to control anymore
so it just continued till i reached the void deck of my house
tonight i decided to walk every route which we ever walked
and i did it
i walked all the way home
i cant believe that i could actually remember those routes which we took
the rain and contact lens was useful this time
the rain helped to cover my tears
contact lens helped to create an excuse for my eyes being red

i reached home
and i had to put on that damn smile which i had to fake
i just hung ard for awhile
couldnt control again
i decided to go and bathe
i just continued to cry in there
no one could c
i din have to put on a false front
i know it wont be easy to get over this
and neither would i want to ever forget anything

im so afraid that i would start crying when i c u face to face
seeing at ur pics and just recalling ur looks can already make me burst out into tears

i know u r feeling no better than me
at least i still have pics of u but u dont
but i know u still can remember the look of me
without looking at the pics
just like i can
for u to smile again is going to be hard
i can understand
i also find it hard to smile again

im willing to wait for 6 years before we get our lawfully freedom
by then no one would be able to stop us again
i believe our love can last
how abt u
maybe this is really a test for us
if we get thru this and reach the final point 6 years from now
no one will break us up again

there's something that i was always afraid of:
i was always afraid that u will leave me someday
but i have faith that u will not leave me
even if u do
i really hope that u will find someone
who really treats u well and gives u the best in everything

our memories will carry on living just like us
they will be waiting for us to multiply them together
the memories that we have so far arent alot
but they will really be kept close to my heart
everything that we have been thru and done will nv be forgotten
every feeling that i had for/with you
will be felt every moment
even at this very moment

everything that i do from now
will be all done for you and our future
if i have any difficulty,
trust me u will be the one that will spur me on
even though u might not be there physically
but somehow ur presence is always felt by me

u might not be the first to read this but it doesnt matter
as long as u read it
and get to see what i wanted to say to u

remember what i said abt the stars
every star represents how much i miss you
there will be nv a day without stars
cause the sun will always be there

i know the rain brings back many of our memories
i really hope that when u have the time
walk those routes which we walked before and recall back
i hope i will nv be forgotten by you
cause i will nv forget you

i wanted to say this to you but i nv had the chance:
wo yuan yi dang ni yi bei zi de shou hu tian shi
xian zai shi, yi hou ye shi
wo si le yi hou, hai hui yi zhi shou hu zhe ni
wo ai ni
ye hui yi zhi xiang zhe ni

last 2nd day of foundation programme

2005-11-16T14:59:00.000+08:00

last 2nd day of foundation programme..
everybody should be feeling happy now..
but this holidays everybody got loads of homework
it's gonna kill me soon
after missing out on 1 week of school
got lots of things i din get to learn
especially a maths
din understand the whole chapter at all
was just lost all the time
maybe i need to do a big revision on this year's topics
anyway got lots of things to catch up on and for me to do

3rd and 4th day of NCO camp

2005-11-12T23:46:00.000+08:00

FOURTH DAY..
had lecture the first thing in the morning
isnt really a lecture
it's more like a history lesson
got to know abt why bands started in Singapore
saw 2 video clips on military bands and their formation
and off we went for foot drill training
we practiced on the march pass
everything went smoothly
went for break
came back and started the Passing Out Parade(POP) rehearsal
had POP rehearsal for the rest of the day

FIFTH DAY aka LAST DAY.. ='(
last day before lunch was POP rehearsal
everything went on fine
just as expected
haha
got break from lunch all the way till 6pm
we could do anything but we have gotta dress up by then
after that fall in at the form up area
gotta prepare for POP
all in all i should say POP was a sucess
just that got one part we din get to salute
other than that everytime was right
haha
i dont wanna to pass out man
NCO camp is so fun
first day was hell
but by the 2nd day
it was beginning to be so fun
i dont wanna go home man
all the DMs went crazy after we finish our performance
actually i should say we went already crazy at the start of the camp
apart from training time
everyone was laughing so happily everyday
every moment rather
got to know many many other DMs
dont look at DMs and think that they are serious
cause im telling u
WE ARE NOT!
haha
we are a bunch of crazy ppl
i dont want NCO camp to finish man!
im gonna miss NCO camp
the memories of NCO camp
the ppl of NCO camp
31st NCOs well done guys!
thanks to those who came for my POP
hope ur enjoyed our show

AND TO YOU:
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING
5 DAYS WITHOUT SEEING YOU WAS TORTUROUS
YOU COULD NOT IMAGINE HOW MUCH I MISS YOU
YOU HELPED ME PERSEVERE THRU ALL THE TRAINING
THINKING OF YOU GAVE ME THE COURAGE
I WILL BE LOVING YOU ALWAYS
PROMISE THAT YOU WOULDNT LEAVE ME
JUST LIKE I WOULD NV LEAVE YOU

2nd and 3rd day of NCO

2005-11-09T21:00:00.000+08:00

SECOND DAY...
had display band technique the first thing in the morning
breakfast was next
had fried noodles
after break was MACE TRAINING
conducted by 2 officers from the Singapore Police Band
we added more steps to the 5 phrases
everybody got much more things to remember
did quite a few errors
but they werent major errors
so just continued practicing the whole thing over and over again(only group A and C)
got the whole thing right at last
had lunch after that tiring few hours
i din eat lunch
then came back for MACE TRAINING again
this time was all the DMs training together
we did the whole thing couple of times
i ain gonna say what we'll be doing here
im only gonna say after the whole parade has ended
repeated doing the whole parade formation thing until break
after break was drills
conducted by army personnel
just did basic drills and got to go home early

THIRD DAY..
had the last display band technique of the camp
manage to complete the whole thing
we memorize all the steps
YEAH!
WAY TO GO DMs!
i guess everybody was feeling very happy
we were let off for breakfast
today's breakfast was fried rice
i ate 2 packets
OPPS! =X
haha
just felt hungry
then had games
amazing race
i wouldnt say that it's very fun
we knew where all those stations were
as we walk around we could c
i got an injury from the 1st station
the skipping rope hit my sunburn on my neck
the feeling was like the skin was splitting
started being quiet
was too pain
i couldnt talk
my team thot we would finish last but we din
phew!
after games was LUNCH
i din eat
i normally dont eat lunch
cause breakfast quite close to lunch
had MACE TRAINING again
this time is fun
we just did the whole thing
from the start to the end
then had once or twice is together with the BMs
had break again
haha
we seem to be having breaks after each segement
after break was foot drill and the passing out parade
dont get mixed up
we got 2 segements
one is passing out parade and one is formation
it was drizzling
so we went to the multi purpose hall to gather
had the training in case on friday it rains
im sure none of us want it to rain
after all the hardwork, effort, scolding we received n the burns we suffer now
we would wanna showcase what we have been doing and learning
so let's pray hard
after we did finish the wet weather programme
we went back into the field
did the passing out parade
only some ppl have special task
other than that the rest of us have simple tasks
quite easy
just few things to learn
so it was home sweet home again

19th month anniversary

2005-11-08T23:55:00.000+08:00

19th month anniversary..
cant spend it with you
i want the 19th to become 1st
start all over again
a new relationship which will not have the mistakes we made the other time
the grow of love for you is increasing every single minute and moment
there is not a single moment when you are forgotten by me
trust me
im very touched by you
all that you did are appreciated
you made me awake
made me realise that i was going the wrong way
u made me realised that i had gone a big round
before knowing that i did not have to look far
the person i have given my heart to
was already right in front of me all the time
and has nv left my side
i was dumb to have hurt you
i was dumb not to realised that you were all the time there
i should have treated you much much better
that's why im not repeating my mistakes again
im gonna treat you the very best i can
and im not gonna let you get hurt ever again
there's no one else i can love more other than you
you are my number one now and forever more
I LOVE YOU

this anniversary is going to end soon
few more mins and it will be over
it's a very memorable anniversary for me
i wonder how abt you

first day of NCO

2005-11-07T20:33:00.000+08:00

first day of NCO camp..
we had briefing
had ice breaker after that
got to know some ppl
after ice breaker was breakfast
i din eat
still full
went to the field after that for display band technique
it doesnt apply to drum majors
but we also learn
after that was lunch
i din eat again
din feel like eating
no mood la
nv c or talk to you
after lunch was hell
haha
but we enjoyed it still
we had mace training
the trainer was really strict
he taught everything quite fast
couldnt catch hold of what he said
but still manage to bluff thru for the first part
guess it was because i was thinking of you
my whole head was in lala land
my head had nothing but you
i will try to concentrate hard for the other sessions
but very hard
today tried very hard also
but the thought of you just keeps coming into my head

before the second part got break
everyone skipped their break and practiced the mace
most of us first time playing the mace
finally i clarified all those parts which was marked a question mark
so had more confidence after that
second half did a combination
like our steps for the parade and all those
only group B got formation
group A and C no formation (im in group C)
but we have to do a mirror image
quite interesting
but got all messed up
the first time we tried
my group was suppose to turn left and we turned right
the instructor was laughing at us for a moment
then he became strict again
he made us raise our left hand then our right
we seemed like lost sheeps
dont know which way to turn
by the end of the session today
i know 6 diff mace techniques
5 out of 20 plus parts of the parade formation

NCO camp tomorrow

2005-11-06T14:47:00.000+08:00

yesterday went to beach road before going to town
went to get my white gloves
then took a cab to orchard
told the uncle Cine and he stopped at Heeren
it's like opposite
okie nvm
so walked ard heeren
and went to swesens eat ice cream
after that crossed over to Crumpler at Paragon
waited for joanne and wl to come
when they reached i started getting BULLIED
went over to cine LJS
they went there to drink water
then walked around more
and left
went to FISHERMAN!!

went there like 2 times this week
we went home quite "EARLY"
early in the morning i mean
like 3plus 4
everytime reach home legs sure ache
walk from fisherman all the way home
tiring
but everytime we walk home sure got funny things will happen
first night
me and joanne banged into each other
we took a route which we had to walk over the grass
stopped at the bus stop for a rest
saw a police car and started walking again
second night
we took the route which we had to walk over the grass again
we nv learn from our mistake
stopped at the bus stop for a rest
saw a police car and started walking again

tml going for NCO camp already
waiting for what's gonna take place
guess i will be super tan when i get back
cause i will be making use of my suntan lotion
haha!
gonna stand in the sun for so long
got the mace slash and gloves already
the mace is heavy man
no joke
maybe i will be stronger after this camp
haha
will be missing school for a week
gonna miss out on alot of lessons

after so long

2005-10-28T20:35:00.000+08:00

today got back report book
went for NCO camp briefing
quite fun
got our shirts already
this year we got 2 shirts
the past years only got 1 shirt
looking forward to NCO camp
it's gonna be very fun
i will be super tan when i come back
will be having mace training everyday
from morning till evening
then gonna have passing out parade
so fun man
but i will die of the heat
the band uniform so hot
i will be a roasted chicken after that
but i have to get my mace and white gloves first
im glad that im the drum major and not the band major
cause the band major has to memorise scores
i cant do that
everytime before performance memorise
then during performance forget everything

tml gonna go to sentosa to suntan
better dont rain
according to weather forcast
it wont rain
but who knows
hope the weather forcast is right
i need to get tan

uncle dino b'day dinner

2005-10-23T23:07:00.000+08:00

today isnt uncle dino's b'day
but we celebrated his b'day today
cause keegan's going back to France for training
we had 18 dishes today
so many
but we managed to finish all
when the cousins are sitted together
we wipe out all the food available
i was very good today
i only drank ONE cup of wine
c what i mean
we had lots of fun today
another cousin found out abt me
she tot i was a bung
i told her i nv bind
she dont believe lor
m i really that flat
this should have been a good celebration for uncle dino
uncle dino is not really young
but he looks young and is very trendy

even if u are gonna give up and let me go
im not gonna give up
u are always in my heart
and i cant let u go from my heart
maybe it's too late to u
but i dont think it's really that late
it might be late
but i only call it too late when im abt to leave the world
i dont wanna die with regrets
i might not be the one u love most
but i know that u can love me most as time passes
i will make u wanna love me more and more
no matter how hard u try to stop urself from loving me
i will make u fall for me even more
it's either u or no one
either im attached to u or im single and unavailable

went out with u

2005-10-21T21:33:00.000+08:00

today got back all the results
got to c them
but the results dont seem to be those that would be appearing in the report book
but we cant do anything to change the marks already
we have taken the exams
whatever marks we have is what it is
let this exam past u already
go on with ur life
this isnt the major exams
the major exams is next year
doing well for the O's is more important
school exams get top also no use
they wont bother
they would only look at ur O level results
so dont get upset and give up k
get back ur confidence
stand on ur feet again
go out and kill the papers
dont let the papers kill u

today went to tamp
had to repair my phone
my phone is crazy again
now is fine
waited 4 hours for the phone's software to get upgraded
at least the wait was worth while
now my phone is working well
haha

spent the 4 hours walking up and down the 2 malls
spent abt 30mins at Storm
i waited longer than it took to cut my hair
finally got my hair cut
easier to style
too long i dont like
so bombarded when i dont style
and it only seems to be happening to my hair
haha

went to collect my phone at 6.30pm
then went for dinner at LJS
walked to the library
then walked back to the 2 malls again
Thanks for everything

got back my results

2005-10-19T18:41:00.000+08:00

today got back our results for EOY
E maths: Paper 1-68/80 Paper 2-67/100
English: Paper 2-33.5/50
Combine sci: Paper 1-38/40 Paper 2- 47.5/65 Paper 3- 59/65
Combine Humanities: Paper 1- 35/50 Paper 2- 24/50
A maths: Paper 1- 52/80 Paper 2: ?
Biology: 57/100
Chinese: ?
this time my results when down by alot
maybe i do have to start preparing for O levels next year beginning
i wanna do well for my O's

last paper today

2005-10-17T19:00:00.000+08:00

exams are finally over
hooray!
all a year of torture im finally done with the exams
time for celebration yeah!
haha
sci paper 2 wasnt hard
but sci paper 1 was abit more challenging than paper 2
i still managed to finish both papers
ms lim says if we do not complete the qns
she's gonna minus marks on top of the awarded marks
means we might end up getting a negative mark if we dont do many questions
tml no school
means very good
tonight can play till the sun rises

i can lose everything in the world
but i cannot lose u
u are the only thing that i need
the love for u is growing so much everyday
until it cant grow anymore
there's nothing on my mind now except u
even when i was doing my paper i was thinking of u
i just dont know how to say how much i love u
except
i would give up my life for u
as long as u are safe and sound
I love u baby

bye s'gene

2005-10-16T22:30:00.000+08:00

had nice breakfast with 2nd uncle's family
haha
went to church late of course
have been laughing since morning till evening
keegan come back from france nv change
still the joker
after church went to ah ma house for lunch
to welcome keegan and farewell to derek
everybody in the room
we are still the joker family
where there is no elder or junior
everybody is equal
even ah ma can also joke with us
a nice family i have
better than mum's side
since ah gong death
i nv wanna go back to that family again
i still like dad's side family
they much funnier and we enjoy life
when we are together
u can hear us from miles away
after lunch go back home
then go for dinner
after dinner sent mum sisters sam popo and her friend
they are off to Genting
good for them
i still got exams
tml last paper
should be quite prepared le
hope they come back safely
it's raining

bye s'gene
cheers to our nice memories